I have been struggling with PMO for a few years now, and today, I hit my three-month mark. There have been many bumps along the way. Towards the end of February, I felt great and hardly got any urges.
Recently, I have been getting more urges, and this week, especially today, has been hard. When I feel tempted, it helps me to think about all of the progress that I have made, and then to think about what would happen if I returned to my old ways of PMO. I would be in that pit again, feeling like crap every time that I relapsed.
Since the last time that I relapsed, there haven’t been any huge “superpowers” that everyone looks forward to, but I have noticed minor changes in myself. I have been feeling more natural and less awkward around people, as that seemed to be a problem that I faced. I’m not saying that I’ve done a complete 180 in that regard, but I have definitely felt the changes.
To anyone that feels hopeless right now, just know that it DOES get better, and that you should never give up hope, even when it feels like there is no way out. I will gladly answer questions that anyone may have.
I am 15 years old, which I hate to say on Reddit because of the anti-teen sentiment. And I probably started looking at porn when I was around 11 or 12. At first I really didn’t know anything about [this], or how addicting
it can be.
LINK – Three-Month Post