I’ve been fapping since I was about 13, I’m 20 now. But I was diagnosed with OCD when I was 16, and now it’s gone. Completely gone.
The biggest thing now is I’m no longer “inside my head” worrying all day and night. It’s almost like I’m seeing the world for the first time.
I was never good with girls, now all of a sudden I am. I was never confident, now I am.
But the little things are even crazier. Now I get pleasure from looking at a sunset, or seeing beautiful piece of art.
I have emotions now while before I was always numb. I would compare it to when I first got contacts for my eyes. When I put the contacts in for the first time I was blown away at the difference, because everything was so clear compared to what I had lived my whole life doing. It’s the same concept, but it’s like contacts for my emotions.
I started quitting about this time last year. I was fapping about 2-3 times a day with porn before I started. When I first started I would go about 2 days without it and then fap. Then 3 days. Then 4. And so on. My first “long streak” was 10, then fapped for a weekend, then 12, then 17, then 9, then 8, then 47ish, 20ish, 20ish, 20ish, 20ish. So even though I wasn’t on a consecutive streak I know I have recovered a lot. Also, when I first would relapse it would take about 10 days to start to notice a change. Now it takes about 3 days to feel a noticeable change.
Since I’ve started nofap it seems like for the first time one my life I understand body language. Anyone else relate to this? Like I can tell when someone is nervous, or I can tell by the way a girl looks at me that she is interested. I also interpret a lot more things as being flirty, if that makes sense. Like if a girl looks at me and smiles the first things that goes through my head is that she is at least pleased to look at me. I also pick up on the really subtle hints. Before nofap a girl would have had to outright told me she was interested, now I feel like I can tell within 10 seconds.
So how can I tell if I’m interpreting this body language wrong? I’m 20 years old so I feel like I should have learned body language before now haha but then again it’s a natural thing so maybe we all understand it. I can’t really explain how I know what their body language means, I just know.
I have however done 2 weeks, then relapse, 3 weeks, relapse, 6 weeks, etc so I think my brain has healed quite a bit.
I act way different than how I used to act since I started no fap. All in good ways, but different. I’m way more confident, I joke around more, I want to talk to people more, I approach girls more. Just about every thing has about me has changed to a degree either small or large. I love it so far. Anyone else notice that they are becoming a completely different person?