Bros, it’s time to get this crap out of your life. It’s holding you back or destroying your life and you don’t even realize it. It did for me. It doesn’t matter what religion you are, how much money you have, how much life sucks, or what your career is, but life is too short and time is too precious to spend hours each week having sex with yourself.
That’s what PMO is – having sex with yourself.
I’m in my mid-20’s. I got hooked on this crap when I was young (somewhere between age 12-15, I’m not really sure anymore) when I was using my uncle’s computer and came across pics and videos of women with immaculate tits. It only took a few hours but I was hooked. Over the next several years I jacked off quite a bit, finding ways in secret to get a hold of this sacred images on the computer screen. Then I got to high school. I was socially retarded. Had a girlfriend but I was more concerned with the virtual world than I was with reality. Then I got to college. Spent about 1-3 hours a day browsing the internet and finding something to climax to, sometimes once, sometimes twice in a day. Again, I had girlfriends on college but never really appreciated true intimacy because I could just go back to the porn. I tried to quit lots of times and would make it a week or two, but once you start again it’s like getting addicted all over again. I did OK in college but was not living my life to the fullest, and those are years that are forever gone. Just before graduating I entered into a relationship with my best friend and I truly did love her. This lasted about 4 years. She was beautiful even though she had flaws just like everyone else. The problem was that porn had subconsciously programmed me to expect perfection. It also subconsciously programmed me to believe a woman is expendable (even though I would never consciously admit this). I cheated on her and then entered into a year-long relationship with someone who wasn’t so perfect after all. Cheated on her but stayed with her, but eventually broke it off.
I got so disgusted with myself. I finally quit the porn about 2 1/2 months ago. Not sure how but I think I developed the mindset that it has no place in my life – no ifs, ands, or buts. No slipups, no exceptions. No jacking off. The only place for the expression of sexual energy in my life (it may be different in yours) is with a living, breathing women, who I can feel, smell, taste, hear, and see right in front of me.
Oh and I flatlined big time. I experienced the same shit some of you guys are going through. Couldn’t get an erection, couldn’t even jack off if I wanted to. My dick felt numb and cold. I had no energy. Nothing excited me. Felt like ass. But it gets better. I started seeing a lovely women and we’ve become quite intimate. Yeah she has her issues and I have mine, but it’s been great. I never realized how good even just a caress from her feels, or how fucking awesome it is to just hold her in my arms after having sex. Beats the hell out of having to do freaky shit to keep an erection, or beating my dick to death in front of the computer. I think it will take me a few more months to recover, but I tell you what… it’s a hell of a lot better than being a slave to virtual images. I mean wtf? Those are years of my life I can’t get back.
Keep trying. Regain control of your own body- learn to control your mind and your dick. Let’s man the fuck up.