Age 21 – I feel fucking fantastic – overccame crippling anxiety

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This time last year I was in College and I had massive anxiety and was on SNRI’s. Even with medication, I wasn’t in nearly good enough shape to Present my presentation for one of my classes. I was forced to Defer for a year. Shortly after this period I had discovered nofap.

Today, I am off SNRI’s, Meditate Daily, go to the gym 3 times a week, cold showers almost every day (its getting so much harder in winter) and im on a a 75 day streak! This is the best I’ve felt in years and nofap is a massive part in it.

Going into my presentation today, I was still nervous but I gave it a good shot and now I feel fucking fantastic. I really feel that nofap is making me a much more confident, energetic person and I doubt I could have faced my fears without it.

I am still in the process of healing, but things are looking so much better than they were. Have a great day guys, and please dont throw away your streak for a few seconds of pleasure, its never worth it!

It can be hard to single out the benefits of nofap with so many different variables happening during the course of my streak but ill give it my best shot:

  • Huge amount of eye contact, no longer look at the ground
  • More confidence
  • I often feel energised after 6 hours of sleep
  • Getting out of bed in general is much easier, I don’t feel groggy nearly as much
  • I have more motivation in general, this helps with studying and developing positive habits
  • Brain fog gone! This is one of my favorite benefits. (meditation definitely played a part here)
  • Much higher appreciation for women (for their looks and personality)
  • I feel better because I have absolutely nothing to hide anymore now that I dont watch porn. I just feel less guilt in general.

I would probably list some other benefits that are women related if I ever put myself in a position to be around them and the opportunity to do so isn’t really there without it being a lot of work (Im also in a computer science course which doesn’t help haha). It’s not really a priority for me currently.

Edit: Forgot to mention im 21.

I can point you to these two incredible sources which really helped me get off the ground.

Headspace

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Headspace is extremely good for beginners and I’d definitely reccommend it over anything else. After the 10 days I paid for 3 months of headspace because I found it easier than just sitting in my room without direction. You really dont need to pay for it though because eventually after about 2 months you’ll find it more manageable to just sit in your own room and stay focused for longer.

Even with the app, it can sometimes be hard to make meditation a daily habit especially since you might not feel the results until a few weeks/months. I really think the long term benefits are really good though, so you should try and stick with it!

As the image says, meditation is not the absence of thought but the practice of stillness. It’s very common for people to have thoughts during meditation, especially early on, but never feel like you’re failing for having thoughts. Once you catch yourself, just bring your atttention back to the breath 🙂

It’s a pretty long winded story but the tl;dr is that I took snri’s to relieve my anxiety towards college and it sorta worked but I used them far too late. Luckily I was only on them for 3 weeks at most. I absolutely hated them though. Sure I was artificially happier and more carefree all the time, but I just felt an odd sense that I wasn’t really myself. I only started to notice this when I was hanged out with my friends.

Anyone going through major anxiety/depression without trying CBT, nofap, cold showers, exercise and meditation then don’t take SNRI’s. They are an easy way around your problems sure, but they’re not worth it. Only use them as a last line of defense.

LINK – Day 75: I faced my biggest fear

By conormcfire