My skin and hair were suffering from the excessive masturbating and my eating habits. I was the unhealthiest person on this planet. I was depleted of nutrients, and who knows how much harm I have done to my body. I knew that deep down all the fat, deep down in that skin of mine, was a really good looking guy, I believed it and felt it.
I began to search for remedies and remedies for acne, because my acne was getting worse, I had tried everything, from smothering your face with chemicals hoping that the acne would go away. I then turned to natural ingredients, those helped but werent getting to the root of it. Finally after changing my eating habits, eating healthier (but i was still eating before bed not letting my digestive system rest) my acne was still looking bad. I had tried everything, I didn’t know what else to do. I was washing my face, eating healthier but not letting my digestive system rest, and it didn’t seem to work. I then thought to myself that maybe my eating habits were good but something else I was doing was casuing my acne.
It was then that I realized that masturbating too much does cause acne, and although it doesn’t heal it completely it certainly helped, a lot. When I would abstain for 1 week and a half my complexion had a glow, but I still had acne but that was from the gut issues i was experiencing. 2015 was full of streaks, mostly 1-2 week streaks but when I would relapse I would relapse hard, like hell why not?
This year 2016, from January to May I was hooked on porn and masturbating 10 times a day, not everyday but maybe 3-4 days of the week. In May of this year I was 215 pounds, I had regained the weight. I met a girl in one of my classes in the 2016 Spring Semester, this girl was amazing, she was everything I ever wanted. I wanted to lose weight to impress her. I wanted her to like me, even though she was married. She was 20 and married, but I didn’t care. Unfortunately we had a falling out because I confessed my feelings for her. I was a bitch.
I wanted to stop being a bitch, I wanted to feel like a man. I wanted to be able to take control and stand tall. Be respected. I wanted to stop being a loser. I was 21 years old, never had a girlfriend, never had sex, was masturbating, (my problem wasn’t with porn, rather it was with the rush I would get, how masturbating would make me feel relaxed because I was always stressed out). I for the most part would only watch amateur porn. never really watched hardcore shit).
I wanted all of that to change and I knew that I had to quit jerking it if I wanted to be successful. Successful in every aspect of my life. Physically, mentally, spiritually, academically, financially. So I began running 4 miles a day. I began to go 2-3 weeks abstaining. I began to eat healthier. I began to eat from 10 am to 6 pm and let my gut rest overnight. I began to drink kombucha for my gut, eat bone broth.
I am happy to say that today I weigh 177 pounds and its the lowest weight ive been for as long as I can remember and all because I stopped masturbating. Quitting gave me more energy, I had more energy throughout the day. It motivated me. and because I wanted to be successful in life, because I wanted to look and feel good I stopped masturbating. That was it for me. That desire was what made me stop.
I wanted to be good looking and have females want me, even though I am waiting until marriage to make love, I just wanted the girls to like me. I stopped masturbating for the girls, but now I don’t masturbate for them rather I don’t masturbate because i care about myself.
Porn/Masturbating changed my life. I’m glad I came across porn. because had I not, the person I am right now would not be the same person that would be here today if i never came across porn.
Because I wanted answers related to my acne, I found NoFap. NoFap isn’t about how long your streak is, streaks don’t exist. NoFap is about learning to live a life with meaning, a life with purpose, and a life of meaning and purpose beats a lonely, empty life which is exactly how I felt when I would masturbate. Successful people don’t fap. They just don’t. They don’t have the time for it because they want more. They want to build their own empire. and thats exactly what we should all want. To be successful. you are the creator of your own life. How do you want to live your life? Ask yourself.
Now that I’ve lost weight, and my acne is gone, girls talk to me. Before that never happened. Yes its true. Girls do talk to you, maybe they talk to me now because I physically look good and before I didn’t. But had it not been for NoFap In would still be overweight. Girls flirt with me, all the time, and yes I still don’t masturbate, and I plan to keep going because I want to be successful. We all have what it takes to control that urge, you either want it, or you don’t. It’s that simple. That’s what it all comes down to. Whether you want something so bad that you do whatever it takes, or you simply don’t.