It’s been over a year since I’ve gotten back on to this website. Can’t believe the progress I’ve made… It’s been about 2 and a half years since my last viewing, and boy, have things improved. Especially in the downstairs department. Anyways, I’ll briefly share my story and tell you guys what daily life is like for me now.
I began watching at age 10 or 11, and immediately catapulted into extreme categories. I PMO’d 3-4 times a day, almost every day, for about 8 years during my pre-teen and teenage life. To make a long story short, it was pretty awful. I didn’t work in the downstairs department whatsoever (extreme ED), and couldn’t seem to connect with other humans very well.
I quit watching in college, and I’ve gradually improved day-by-day ever since. It took a lot of persistence; it’s almost like running a marathon. I had pretty bad withdrawals when I quit as well. Fast-forwarding to today, I can get it up on command. I can talk to women a bit more easily, and the ED problems are completely gone!! I have been in a bit of an M binge, and it doesn’t seem to hurt me too much, but I definitely notice slight negative effects with self-esteem and confidence, which usually return to normal after a couple days. I do it completely to feeling, and even if I do it multiple times a day I still don’t get ED. It’s almost like I’m just a normal dude now.
Some of you may be wondering how the heck one is supposed to stay PMO free for this long. One thing’s for sure: I definitely didn’t do it alone. Since I quit, I joined Alcoholics Anonymous and realized that I was born with the disease of alcoholism, the reason I simply couldn’t stop watching for the longest time. The program of AA has given me a life worth living. I figured out that watching P isn’t the problem, it’s me that’s the problem, and that I need help. Me watching P was a symptom of my problem, not the problem. I know there are guys on this website that struggle with constant relapsing, always slipping and never being able to get back up. I know how it feels to have a strong desire to stop watching and relapse anyway, the definition of incomprehensible demoralization. The feeling of not wanting to watch, but not being able to stop myself from doing it was the most terrible feeling in the world. To anyone reading this who is suffering from this PMO thing: I encourage you to go to the AA website, read the Big Book, and replace the word “Alcohol” with “PMO”. It changed my life. I know that I’m powerless over PMO’ing, and without help, I’m basically screwed. If I didn’t practice the program of AA, I’d watch again. I just know it.
Anyways, good luck guys! My life is truly a lot better today, totally worth every ounce of effort I put in. Feel free to message me with any questions, I’d be happy to help.
BY – Dominic