From the day I could masturbate which was probably 11/12.. I don’t remember, I was fucking hooked. Everyday, everynight, sometimes multiple times a day. I was obsessed. 10 years later I turned 21 and I haven’t masturbated in almost 3 months now. The old me would’ve not even been able to comprehend that.
I’ve been lurking around here every once and a while and stopped for a few months, but recently realized how much nofap has affected my life and changed it. I want to share with you guys my experience and motivate anyone going through this battle.
I was always a weird quite kid until I hit puberty, it went even more downhill from there. I think it was cause I was masturbating so much it fucked up my “masculine” traits from developing. Only when I started intense strength training did I start to see masculine futures in myself, however I was always masturbating. I saw minute gains, I was tired all the time, old people would have more energy then me and give me shit for being tired. I had no clue why. I am also a fairly attractive male and am aware of it, ever since around 18 (when I started seriously working out and dieting) I have gotten complements left and right, sure it boosted my ego, but there was always something wrong with me. Until I discovered nofap. I remember reading articles on how men who had been hooked for decades were turning there life around, and how porn. PORN. The shit I loved to look at every night before I went to bed. affected them. I was mindblown, I had no idea that porn was not normal. I had no idea that masturbating was not normal. I tried to stop for a week and went insane. This was around late 2014. I came to a realization that masturbation and porn was really a problem, I had thought I loved it so much, but in reality it was masking a deeper problem.
Day in day out I became determined to quit masturbating, but it was tough of course. I became depressed, felt like my life was going to shit, and that I needed porn to help me feel good, I was back and forth. But let me tell you something, let me fucking tell you something. My life was fucking SHIT. My life, for a young man… was fucking shit. I was lonely, I was depressed, I played video games and smoked weed and masturbated. I was numbing the pain, my whole life I was numbing the pain and I could only realize that until I got to the other side.
My first long streak was 40 days, and I was on fire. I was the fucking man. then I got horny and lost it and rebounded hard..more months of battling and more… I got another streak of 40 days and felt pretty damn good. I’m young so I assumed I would recover quickly, but a decade of damage is a decade and I lost it again. Then I discovered orgasm without ejaculation, which I thought was helping me, but I was just trying to get my fix like a monkey pushing a button. After just being tired of losing to myself and tired of this stupid habit, I decided to cut it for good. Now I’m on what is almost three months, and let me tell you. I just turned 21, and everything is getting better. I have more energy then I was when I was a teen, of course I am young and have a great immune system, but the difference from masturbating and not masturbating is night and day. You guys. you can fucking do this. The pay off is lifechanging, literally.
I use to be awkward, shy, couldn’t make gains for my life. Tired, foggy brained, had weird spurts of motivation that never lasted, and never truly felt driven.
Now… there is something in me. Its like a fire that cannot be put out, this energy of masculinity that really makes me actually feel like the fucking man. I can confront people on their bullshit, I can look a girl straight in the fucking eye and say what are you looking at. (not in a douchey way but a teasing way). I can communicate with other males that are very mature and sturdy, and my gains have skyrocketed. Some nights I only sleep 4-5 hours (I know its not good), but I will wake up before my alarm clock and be more energized than I ever have been in my life. When I was masturbating everynight, I would need 8-10 hours of sleep and I would wake up feeling like shit.
The difference, is. Literally life changing. It is something I wish everyone going through this struggle to experience, the energy, the vigor I feel from not masturbating and taking control of my life is like no other. I know as a man that I am on the up and up. I know that I can achieve whichever goal I wish to achieve, I know that I can talk to a girl like a human being, and not like some object that should have her holes stuffed. My mind is cleansed from all the weird ass porn, now I look at girls and want the best for them and myself.
Nofap has changed my life, and I can honestly say I would not be who I am if I had not stumbled upon this website, so thank you for all of your motivational stories. Thank you yourbrainonporn.com for the science behind masturbation and porn. Thank you for taking the time for reading this. May you all fight your inner demons, achieve great things in life, be a great fucking boss of a human being. Embody the divine energy that is within you and allow it to better humanity for us. Do not toss your seed of life into a fucking napkin, use it for greatness, for lovemaking, for the betterment of the human race. The energy and drive that comes with nofap is no joke.
By jlaix2
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