For the past three or so years I struggled with erectile dysfunction. Although I frequently masturbated, I had a lot of difficulty getting it up when it came to having sex, in fact, I could never maintain an erection longer than a minute or so. I went to my doctor and he suggested that I had performance anxiety. I knew this was not the case: I COULD get an erection and reach orgasm, but it was only by my own hands when I was alone in my room with my thoughts. I couldn’t achieve and maintain an erection on my own mentally even if I tried, something I could have easily done years ago.
After many months of disappointment and failed attempts I decided to look for research as to why I couldn’t have sex. I came to the conclusion that it must have been my frequent abuse of porn and masturbation. See, when I was 15 years old, the smallest thing would make me aroused, such as seeing that itty bit of skin between a girl’s pants and her shirt. But now at age 23, I can’t get hard without certain sexual fantasies going through my head. I eventually found this 90-day cleansing process. Though I initially discovered it in February 2014, I hit many roadbumps. I would often go a month without fapping. My previous record was 46 days and the relapse from that hurt. When the new year rolled in, I told myself I would stop fapping for 90 days so that April 1 could be my 90 day point. (It would be exactly three months) However, I relapsed again and decided on January 18th that I would stop again.
It was a struggle. Though I was fine on some days, on other days I was getting desperate to go on the internet to look up porn. I can’t say that I DIDN’T go the full 90 days without looking at porn; because I did. Not looking at porn was more of a means of not fapping, but it did happen. My goal was to not fap for 90 days, which I managed to do. Today is my day 91, so I fapped today (I figured I deserved it as a reward for going the full 90 days.) But now I’m going to not fap for another 90 days. This time, however, I plan on cutting out all forms of porn and electronic devices and apps as a means of acquiring it. This means no internet, no movies, and certainly no Reddit. Yes, I’ll come back for another 90 day report after my next feat, but until then you won’t see or hear from me. I’ll be taking the time to pursue hobbies and life goals instead.
As for my report, I’m starting to see my sex turn come back. Though it isn’t the way it was when I was 17, My confidence is returning. I ended up having sex yesterday (on Day 90, go figure.) Though I’m not exactly where I’d like to be, the fact that I managed to get aroused and sexually active with a girl has inspired me to continue bettering myself. I mean, I really felt helpless for months and months. I just want to tell you all that I felt there was no way to turn my life around. I went on a limb and kept myself in control for 90 days and it paid off. it was very hard and at some moments, I didn’t think I would make it. But I had a bad addiction to pornography and masturbating and if I can overcome it, you can overcome it.
LINK – 90 Day NoFap Report
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