These last 6 months have been some of the most enlightened of my life. I’ve never been so optimistic and I’ve grown a lot of gratitude in the last half year. I’ve been doing it hardmode (still a virgin) and I feel like these months are laying the foundation of who I will become in the future. These are some the improvements I noticed in the last 6 months:
-I’ve gained and lost weight during the same time period (still workin on this goal, lost 12lbs in the last month)
-i’m a lot more assertive then I use to be,
-i’m able to make better connections with women,
-i’m not depressed about the fact that I’m still a virgin anymore
-I learned that there’s a lot more to the world than sex
-I’m talkin to a girl now (met her on Tinder, but hey that’s still more than I was talking to half a year ago)
-I enjoy life ALOT more and i’m more present in every aspect of my life
-I look better (yes the clearer skin thing is real. NoFap’s got me looking glossy lol)
-I’m not afraid to take chances and do new things like I use to be
-if thinking about doing something makes me uncomfortable, I do it
-I’m not as nervous in big social environments. Now I look for social events to attend.
-I’m a lot more efficient when it comes to getting work done.
-My concentration/focus level has improved drastically
-I’m more in touch with my emotions and what I feel is a lot more intense. If i’m happy, I’m the happiest man in the solar system and when i’m angry I can make people sorry they got on my bad side
-I’m not attracted to pictures or videos anymore, i’m attracted to real women. When I say real women, I mean women that you can actually see, speak to, smell and touch (pardon if this sounds creepy lol). A women that is aware of your existence.
There’s more but i’m pressed for time to write more. If your thinking about doing NoFap, do it. It will be the best decision you ever made in your life. I never want to fap again for the rest of my existence. These first 6 months were just setting the foundation; these next 6 months (which starts today) I plan to be a full built brick house. I’m determined to be the man that I was born to be. Ask me any questions or if you need some advice, i’ll be happy to answer. I love you guys. Couldn’t have done it without you. Keep fighting the good fight.
If you want a basic background on me, this was a post I did after my first week on NoFap http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/2lz6t1/my_first_week_on_my_nofap_journey/
LINK – My First 6 months on NoFap
WARNING: VERY LONG READ AHEAD.
Alright now before I get into how my week with NoFap has been, let me give you a little background about myself. I saw porn for the first time when I was 13 years old at a friends house. When I first watched it, I felt an overwhelming feeling of arousal and was hooked that first moment of watching it. Ever since then, for the last 11 years, pmo has been my DAILY routine. Yes DAILY routine.
I was already depressed just a little before I first started pmo because I was always getting made fun of in school and became even more withdrawn socially after pmoing. Over the next 11 years I became introverted, reserved, didn’t have a social life besides school or work, the only thing I had was porn. I was EXTREMELY shy around girls. I was so shy that my heart would pace just at the thought of having to interact with them, with the fear of being judged.
This year I started the quest of trying to change myself and become free of this mental and emotional prison that I’ve become confined to for the past decade plus and start dictating my own path. I bought self help books, started doing more things outside of my comfort zone, and really started to reflect in depth and ask myself how did I become the way I am today. For the last 9 months I’ve been learning a lot about myself and discovering things about my past that subconsciously resonated with me to this day that I wasn’t aware of. I became more relieved the more I found out the more about myself and wanted to action to change.
Now I’ll finally get into how I discovered NoFap and became apart of this movement. Like I said earlier in my post, I’ve been pmoing everyday since I was 13 yrs old and it has become a daily routine in my life. Just the thought of stopping for even a day scared me, but like I said, I’m on a quest to change myself and I really want to reprogram myself. (Though the longest I ever went without pmo was 7 days and that was when my grandmother passed away and I was depressed) I started to get anxiety and think to myself “how am I going to get off? I don’t have a gf, I’m not confident in myself, I’m still a virgin, etc..etc..” I started reading success stories about people’s journey’s and a lot of people’s stories where the same as mine. It felt great to know that I wasn’t alone.
I already stopped watching porn for 2.5 months (From early July to late September this year) but I was still MOing. Then I relapsed and started watching porn again for the whole month of October. Though I was PMOing, I found myself not enjoying the porn as much as I use to. Then I started to come to a realization that I’ve become so dependent on virtually watching other people having sex and my hands for sexual pleasure and was thinking this is not how I should be spending my golden years.
So I discovered this subreddit and NoFap.org and then I became more driven to stop, and boy am I glad that I decided to stop. This last week I’ve been in such a positive mood. For the first time since I was 13 (I’m 24 btw) I’ve been enjoying life and been really happy. I carry myself different, I’m more enthused at work then I was a week ago, I feel more fearless and bold, I speak with more authority, I’m a lot more relaxed and calm when i’m talking to females. My emotional state has changed a lot in this last week for the better and I don’t want it to go away. I actually want to go out and meet women and have real experiences with them.
Sorry for this long post, I just had to get this off my chest. To sum this whole thing up, this is the happiest I felt since I was a kid and I’m even more happy that I still have a long way to go and that this is ONLY THE BEGINNING. Thank you NoFap for helping me on my quest to self discovery, changing my life, and helping me break free of this internal prison. Thank you for reading this long ass post lol.