Age 27 – After years of addiction, I can now love wholeheartedly


I used to be a porn addict of 15 years. I’m not here to waste your time, nor am I here to boast about my streak. I’m here because I am grateful and humbled for all the help and support I’ve received in this journey. My heart is so full of love right now and I feel compelled to help you guys, my fellow brothers and sisters.

PMO utterly and completely destroyed my life – my grades, my friendships and even tore my family apart. I have been fighting this addiction for over 7 years – 7 freaking years of failure, depression and tears.

I am currently on the longest streak of my life at 64 days, with the previous longest at 23 days. What a journey it has been. I am absolutely humbled at every turn at just how all consuming this addiction really is.

But it is only recently (on this streak) that I am equally humbled at the power of love.

I got very lucky with this streak because it wasn’t made out of willpower. It is the product of a very specific set of circumstances that allowed the breakthrough, but the most important one, in my opinion, was getting my health back on track.

Without a doubt, the absolutely most crucial one that worked for me for breaking out of the vicious PMO cycle was embracing a healthy lifestyle wholeheartedly. I can’t believe it took me most of my life, YEARS to figure this out.

My fellow brothers and sisters, I truly believe that working out is the magic bullet to combating this addiction. It is the largest contributing factor to helping me breakthrough with this streak.

Now, I’m not saying that you should become a gym rat and dedicate every waking hour to working out, but the importance of a healthy lifestyle cannot be understated in combating this addiction.

I wish I could’ve started earlier.

And the way that it started was pretty silly as well. I remembered I was watching Captain America on the way to work at the beginning of the streak and thought to myself: man, I’m already making so many changes to my life, I want to see how far I can actually push myself.

I decided there and then to build a superhero body for myself by eating, sleeping and training well. I was told that if I was disciplined about it, I could look like a superhero in 8 months.

Now, every time I go to the gym and lift a weight, I feel like I’m saving the world. When I lift weights, I imagine myself pushing a building off or lifting a car to save innocent civilians. Yea I know it sounds silly, but that’s why you guys are the only people I’ve shared this with :p

A 240 day streak, looking like a superhero? Hell yeah! I can’t wait!

The one thing that I’ve been ignoring all my life is the very thing that finally made it work: FITNESS!

Of course, there were also other factors that went into making this streak happen.

I secured a new full-time job, which forced me to leave the house with the change of environment. As much as I hated the actual job, the act of leaving the house to do something, ANYTHING, other than video games and PMO, helped force my body into a new habit and lifestyle.

I also took cold showers, and in the beginning, boy do they freakin’ suck at 5am in the morning. But after a week, something strange started to happen. I started to like cold showers. What the heck?

After the initial shock of the cold water touching your skin, it feels absolutely rejuvenating and empowering, and I remember having the thought that “IF I CAN DEAL WITH THIS FREAKIN’ COLD WATER I CAN DEAL WITH ANYTHING ELSE, COME AT ME”

I wanted to talk about my experience and the epiphany that I felt when I discovered my life’s purpose, and so I made a quick and rough video. I also took some time to talk to my 12 year old self, the age that I was introduced to porn. I wish someone would’ve shared what I know now to 12 year old Kevin, to save him from a life of hell.

I hope you guys don’t mind the fact that the lighting isn’t the best, I don’t have any equipment and had to make do with what I had:

My fellow brothers and sisters, I would like to share that while there are still issues in my life that need fixing, its trajectory has drastically changed. Life is good. Life is beautiful. Life is phenomenal.

I am planning to write a guide to help anyone who would like to go through the same amazing experience of healthy lifestyle in combating porn addiction.

But for now, what do you guys think?


Video Report of 61 days, discovered my life’s purpose during this streak: I am dedicating my life to help other addicts kick this addiction and to help them become the best versions of themselves through a healthy lifestyle

LINK – How I made it past 60 days and found my purpose in life

By buttsoupz