Age 29 – I am more in control of myself, no longer a victim, quit smoking


I’m on my longest streak ever and I only have 9 more days until my 3 month reboot and I want to share some stuff with you guys (and girls). I joined nofap 5 years ago, and have been trying this ever since. It is an extremely hard addiction to overcome. Trust me, I know, I am a former heroin addict with 1 year 3 months sober.

Heroin fucked me up immeasurably, but I went to a rehabilitation center and they helped immensely. Without my stint in rehab, I would never have quit. I could not do it on my own. I tried so many times, but kept failing.

But in nofap, there isn’t a ‘porn addiction center’. There’s no ‘fapaholics anonymous’. In PMO addiction, your drug of choice is always within your reach, society promotes it, and there are endless amounts of artificial stimulation found online. I would honestly say that stopping fapping was as hard as quitting heroin… maybe even more so. I want you guys to know how strong you really are to even attempt to take this journey to stop PMO.

We are a breed of men and women who recognize that we are better than this. That we deserve more in life. That we are good people who just got stuck in a detrimental habit. To everyone who is on this journey, i wish you all the luck and hope you all reach your goals.

I just want to share some positives I’ve experienced ever since i’ve started:

  • -Smoking cessation (both tobacco and cannabis)
  • -Energy (I’m not tired constantly)
  • -Focus
  • -Acceptance of myself
  • -Recognition and acceptance of my personal issues
  • -More female attention
  • -Personal power (I am more in control of myself, no longer a victim)
  • -Confidence
  • -Loss of attachment to outcomes
  • -More self-compassion
  • -Overall emotional maturity

That last one is something that I’ve never worked on. I started abusing drugs at around 14, and in a lot of ways I have not matured emotionally from that age (I’m now 29). However, in the last month especially, I’ve had more “breakthroughs” than I’ve ever had. I understand so much more about myself and my though patterns and actions, and I’ve been able to accept things about myself that I shoved deep down prior to nofap. Thank you nofap, thank all of you on here, and thank God for all my success. Do this one day at a time and I promise you you will do it. I truly have no desire to look at porn anymore, I do still want to fap from time to time, but it is pretty easy to squash that urge. My 90 day goal is in sight…but I really think I may push myself to see how far I can go, and how much better I can be. Stay strong.

Love and Peace,

LINK – Wow. 9 more days!

By Notfappening

How being pornfree has allowed me to challenge my unhappiness

My pornfree journey has allowed my brain to heal in lots of ways, and although I have a long way to go, I’m miles from where I began. One thing I’ve noticed is how unhappy I was and although it is easy to blame society and my parents, it is ultimately my fault. I choose to do the things I do and to say the things I say. They are within my control. I can’t control other people’s actions or words, but I can control my reaction to them. I’ve noticed that in the beginning of my journey, I was very reactive and stuck in a vortex of victimization. I’m starting to realize that I make myself a victim. Sure, life has been tough, but I can’t let hardships get me down. Everyone goes through them in their own way. It is important to meet these hardships head on, and to not compare yourself to anyone else. It is your life and you can only compare yourself to your past self. As long as you are making changes for the better, you are progressing.

I find pornfree to be like a snowball rolling down a hill (nofap too). You start to better yourself in one simple way- not watching P (and not MOing if on nofap). But as you rid yourself of the negative energy production that is PMO, you start to see other areas in your life you want to improve. It’s like stopping PMO takes the wool from over your eyes, and you see your life as it really is, and you are not happy (if you’re like me). You then make changes in your lifestyle that are hard and painful at first, but rewarding and life-affirming in the long term. And it makes you happy. Like actual happiness, not the cheap ‘happy’ that comes from watching porn. It is real and lasting and shapes you as a person. I am no longer a weird hermit creature who pleases himself to pixels multiple times a day. I am no longer ashamed of my behind-the-scenes actions. I am proud of who I am, and who I continue to be. Keep on keepin’ on brother and sisters, and things WILL get better. And you may even be able to describe yourself as happy on day soon…

I am now one day away from my goal of 90 days and I think some celebration is in order. I don’t have much to say, just wanted to congratulate myself on actually doing the whole 90 days without even a peek. I am proud of myself for sticking to something even though it is a silent victory. I did not do this for the glory of it, merely to fix myself. And I think I have made great progress in the past three months. I was addicted to masterbation since I found it at 12 and have been fighting it seriously for the last five years. The past 3 months have been a series of battles. I attacked many of the habits and addictions that I had concurrent with my nofap and pornfree challenges. I stopped smoking cigarettes, cut down my ice cream consumption (I love ice cream lol), and have actually been able to lower the dosages of some of my anti-depressant medication. (With my doctor’s involvement, of course)

My goal now is to be off all my mood enhancement/psychotropic drugs in a controlled and slow process. I just want to be me again. I feel my medications were prescribed in error and I am trapped now. It will be a tough series of battles, but I know that if I can stop porn usage I can do anything. It is not like the urge isn’t there. It is. It is just much quieter and I am able to overcome it with ease. I am not on day 90 of nofap, only 23 days, but I have only masturbated once in the past 90 days-which is a huge accomplishment for me. I am likely to stay on the trajectory that I am now on and can’t wait to see what benefits await me in the future. Thanks for listening, and good luck to you in all of your goals. Peace.

89 Days In

I can’t believe I made it so long without viewing porn. If I can do it, anyone can. Been watching porn since 12 and am 31 now… I wish I had found this sooner, but that’s life. My brain has healed so much in the past 3 months and I thank God for every second of my life pornfree. I used to be very socially awkward, devoid of energy, and unable to do anything about it. Now am socially comfortable, I have so much energy, and I have been accomplishing things I never thought possible.

Seriously though, the energy I have now is amazing. I don’t even need to sleep as much as I had in the past while I was watching porn and fapping. This is the biggest and best benefit I’ve found that pornfree has helped me with. It is crazy how much porn and fapping sap your energy from you. I remember always being tired, feeling like I could seriously nap at any time. Now I am up at 7 in the morning like clockwork and enjoy my day (which doesn’t start at 12pm now). Like I haven’t even been trying to get up early and go to sleep early… I just do. I am very happy with my progress in my sleep habits and I have been able to deal with the chronic fatigue that used to plague me every day. The superpowers are real. Even if they just seem like superpowers to us because we haven’t felt ‘normal’ in a long time. I have found talking to girls easier, feeling better, having more positive and less negative thoughts, and my posture, voice, and body language have all improved. But I swear the energy I feel is the biggest difference I have found. If you struggle with fatigue and always being tired, try a round of pornfree. I like to combine it with nofap, I seem to get the biggest boosts in energy that way.

Well, I’ve beaten heroin, cigarettes, countless other drugs (I’ve had a substance abuse problem since I was 16) and now porn, what will I do next lol? Thanks to everyone who gave me support, it really helped me on my journey. Good luck to everyone on here, may you reach all your goals. Peace!

Hit day 90 today. Congratulations, me.

Some things to be grateful for when Pornfree

I don’t take enough time to be grateful for things, so I feel that I should note a few things in my life that are positive:

-I am very happy to be cigarette free! I stopped a 16 year habit about 80 days into my pornfree journey.

-I am happy to have energy! I used to be so exhausted all the time and a big portion of that was watching porn/masterbating all day.

-My depression has definitely lessened. I don’t go into as low lows anymore and I feel happy and positive more often. I do still have bad days but they are nothing compared to the thoughts I used to have.

-I am happy to say that I have effectively beaten every urge to watch porn that I have got. It is at a point now where I don’t even have urges to watch porn anymore. Every so often a little one may emerge but it is easily beaten. I really made huge strides in healing my brain for the past few months.

-I haven’t fapped in 40 days! I am doing nofap in conjunction with pornfree and although I did M and O once, I did NOT watch porn. In the past 105 days I masturbated a total of one time. I think that’s remarkable, especially when I think of what I used to be.

-I am overall more present and aware. I not longer have a secret inside me that I am ashamed to tell anyone. I am myself and what you see is what I am. It is a great feeling to not have to deal with the shame that I didn’t even know I had while I was watching porn and masturbating. I am now proud of myself.

I am extremely grateful for all these things and more, and I appreciate myself and the universe for allowing me to have come so far. Thank you. I hope all of you reach your goals and have awesome lives. Peace!