Met a girl who was visiting town last week. Really hit it off and spent a couple of days together. Slept together the night before she left. I felt much more present during the deed than in the past. Didn’t last too long but didn’t explode immediately either as I expected.
Been focusing on a lot of emotional work lately so I felt pretty connected to her before and after. The feeling of true vulnerability while intimate. I almost wept.
I still have a lot of sexual baggage to unload and stress/trauma to resolve. Wondering if I’ll continue to make progress rebooting even while having sex on the rare occasion.
Zero orgasm for over fifty days. Involved a lot of deep breathing, relaxation, and resignation. Somewhat calmer but still playing boatloads of computer games which is keeping my brain foggy. One thing at a time.
This is one of the longest periods I’ve gone without M and it’s been surprisingly not difficult. I wonder if stress is keeping the drive low.
I’m 30ish. Using porn off and on since I was about 15.
LINK – Sex after 55 days