According to my “Don’t break your chain” app, this is my 100th day of not fapping to porn. About 60-something days in, it became part of my identity.
Some things I noticed along the way:
- The first 30 days were the hardest. Those were the days where making that “X” in my app and reading nofap and YBOP were critical to keeping me on track, and where every single night I wanted to watch some tube-site action.
- 30-60 days, it was still not easy, but never once was it as difficult as it was in the first 30 days.
- Sometime after 70 days, I started to forget that I even had an app streak. It was just suddenly very obvious to me that I just am not the type of person that watches porn compulsively.
- I occasionally jack off, maybe once a week when I really feel the need for release. Never to porn, and I actually bought a fleshlight to mimic the sensation of a vagina, so that I can train my dick to respond better to vag than to hand.
- I still occasionally will look at a pair of tits in a subreddit, because I like tits, but for 100 days I have not binged, jerked off or cum to porn.
- The longer I maintain the streak, the more I feel control over my mind-state. It really makes me realize how much I had lost control over my mind in the last few years. Makes me wonder how much more I could have accomplished, had I had better guidance.
- I still have urges to watch and jerk to porn. Actually, right now as I’m writing, I’m getting a boner and feel like turning something on. The difference is that it’s now much, much easier to curb those urges.
- I don’t think I could have just quit cold turkey and succeed, if I didn’t have other things in my life that are routine and healthy as well: I eat clean(with a cheat day once a week), I pump iron 3x per week and do Yoga 3x per week, I try to hang out with good people at least twice a week, drink a lot of water, and get plenty of rest. It wasn’t always that way, so I get that not everyone can keep all of that up, so if I had to pick one of the things on that list to do, it’d be getting plenty of rest (or water). I notice that whenever I’m tired, it’s harder to maintain self-control.
I don’t think I’ll relapse. Whenever I feel like relapsing, I think about how much time I’ve wasted already, and how I can’t die thinking that I spent a quarter of my life watching porn.
Stick with it folks, before you know it it’ll be part of who you are, and your life will be SO much better.
45 DAY REPORT – 45 day check-in — it gets easier
after my last check-in at 31 days, I’ve really started gaining momentum. Hard to explain but I just feel like I have full control over my life. I feel more confident in all social interactions, depression symptoms gone, ADHD symptoms much much improved. Rock hard boners, I’m talking Jack Stallion, same as when I used to take 20mg cialis.
I haven’t turned into a productivity machine, in fact I’ve decided to rest and sleep a lot to give my body time to recover. But now when I rest, it feels like real rest, not just a racing mind and a series of compulsive behaviors.
I think what helped me stick with it this time, is more self-awareness of triggers, and a good routine otherwise. I have a steady job, go to bed and wake up at the same times, take supplements for brain health, hit the gym and do yoga for flexibility.
I had one night last week where I had a minor relapse, I browsed some escort profiles late one night for about 20 minutes. But even while I was doing it, I could feel how my executive functioning was intervening this time.
I’m really happy with the results of the NoFap experiment and don’t intend to watch porn again. I wish everyone could stick with it. I’ve been preaching the NoFap gospel to some of my friends that need it, but you can see in their lack of eye contact, lack of drive in life and lack of energy in social interactions, that they just aren’t there yet. I can’t judge them, it took me 2.5 years to get to a point where I was able to stick with it for this long.
Wish you all the best and remember to stick with it! It DOES get better.