Age 32 – Confidence returning, I can keep to a routine, hygiene improved

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32, quit porn because I was overdoing it. I was more into porn than real girls. Ignoring decent looking women who were hitting on me. I was watching porn for at least 15 years. The last 7 was my worst. My ED was never really bad. I just couldn’t 100% erect. It was always at 75%. I could never orgasm with a partner. Always had to be my death grip.

My first attempt at no fap started on Feb 27 this year. That lasted a little over a month. I PMO’d twice on the second day. My second streak started the next day, I’ve reached 80 days. I’ve had 3 orgasms though. Two were HJ/BJ from this girl I know (She is still weirded out that I haven’t initiated sex). One was an accident when I was getting a massage.

Progress-

1) Some days I’m super confident and other days I don’t want to be seen in public. Confident days are brilliant though – I talk to anyone I feel like talking to. My sense of humor is on point those days.

2) I can keep a strict routine (gym, meditation, reduce tv/laptop, focus on work). My hygiene standards have improved.

3) The biggest problem for me is – the days I get an erection or when I’m with my FWB, my erection is not hard and it’s about 70% of my regular size. It’s a bit weird. I’m not sure if that changes or if anyone else has experienced this.

$) All my 3 orgasms were within a week from each other and all 3 were uncontrollable orgasms. I came prematurely. I’ve never had this problem before.

Verdict – I’m going to stick with this and see what happens. I’m not sure about superpowers or attention from women, but this makes me want to make myself a better person. I guess in the end, the only thing I can do is be the best version of myself and then hope for the best.

LINK – 80 days of no PMO, MO or watching porn. Think I’m 1/4th the way there.

By patjjjj