I have been a silent observer in panic mode since May of this year. I am 34 years old. I started looking at dirty pictures at a young age, but I never really delved into internet Porn until I was married and miserable. That was ten years ago.
A year ago, I began to consider that maybe the Porn usage was causing me difficulty in meeting a gal. I was lonely for a long time and frustrated with my failed attempts. I decided to quit PMO and went hardmode for 6 months with no knowledge of this community, or the real dangers of porn.
During that time I fell madly in love with a girl but I guess I liked her too much and it drove her away. I gave up on my dreams and relapsed back into Porn. During that time I bumped into a girl I had met three years before but who I had not seen in about a year and a half. Looking back, she was always flirting with me and trying to get my attention but probably because of my Porn usage I was unable to handle the situation. We were so happy to see each other the feeling was legit, but she had a baby all of a sudden and was in a bad situation. She gave me her number and I was helpless but to text her.
Within two weeks she was at my apartment and we were in my bed and I was disturbed by how difficult it was for me to maintain my erection. I somehow suffered through it and was able to muster up enough of a boner to make something that resembled sex out of the situation. I chalked it up to me not being the type of guy that was into married women.
She immediately left her husband and began to pursue me, but the next time we went to do it, I felt dead! I didn’t want to! I had a beautiful woman in my bed desperately trying to arouse me and I felt nothing. Suddenly I was full of horror and I began to try to think of something I could do to get an erection. If only I could put on some porn, then maybe.. and my heart sank. I knew I had damaged myself.
All I have to do to know I will never watch porn again is to think of that moment.
I instantly cut porn out of my life, but I had no idea how real the withdrawal would be. The flatline cost me my job, and almost my life. I thought it was permanent.
Anyway I figured out what was going on with me and I told this chick what was up. She was very understanding and started leaving me articles of clothing so I could smell it while she was away. I think that helped some. Her marriage was loveless and full of lies and manipulation. I realize it wasn’t the best situation to find someone, but what was I supposed to do! I needed the healing so bad and she gave it to me! and I am so grateful for it I don’t even give a shit what anyone has to say, and honestly, I was in the same situation that she is leaving when my ex wife left me those ten years ago. It’s a strange coinky dink to say the least.
So for me guys, I quit Porn hardmore for 6 months, relapsed for 3, experienced PIED, and am now healed after about 82 days with some serious rewiring help from a woman.
And guys, this isn’t a thread I made after my first successful sex attempt. It’s been about two weeks now that I can get wood at the sound of her voice, that I can take my time without fear of losing my erection.
THE BOTTOM LINE IS GUYS, DON’T GIVE UP. PIED ISN’T FOREVER. YOU CAN RECLAIM YOUR LIFE YOU CAN BE THE MAN YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE!! PORN IS NOT AN OPTION.
LINK – HEALED
by SADBEER
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