Working from home the last year and PMO was way too easy and way too frequent. As the title says, decided Hard Mode was the only option after a few pretty bad instances of not being able to keep hard enough to really have decent sex.
On top of that I wasn’t finding the wife very attractive as I’d reset my reward circuits to impossibly “perfect” P-stars and ever more hardcore P.
I won’t lie, it was a tough 30days, mostly the first week since it was the longest I’d not done any M to O in about 20 years. Slowly the frustration became enjoyment of the new drive, the new energy , the new attraction to real world females and the obvious attention I was getting back. Testosterone is one hell of a drug! /RickJames
So last night for the first time in a month I had sex with the wife. I don’t think I’ve been that hard for that long since I was 17. Rock hard from foreplay to climax and a while after. So much more feeling, sensitivity, passion, love, raw animal lust, just fantastic sex! Wife was blown away, like really blown away, several times, and without putting too fine a point in things, we’re out of kleenex. 😉
Anyway, to fellow PIED sufferers… hang in there, there’s definitely light at the end of the tunnel, and not only is getting to it worthwhile but so is the journey. Changing to Soft Mode as of today, no O except with the wife and I know this is going to be a big benefit to our relationship. No looking back for me, I control the P now, not the other way around.
A massive collective thank you to this group for the passive and active support. Wouldn’t/Couldn’t have done it without you.
Onward, fellow fapstronauts, to glory!