I started nofap a good few years ago now and I have come a long way since then; I used to PMO to paid content almost every night in order to sleep. I was distant with my wife and depressed. After a long streak some time ago I stopped the dependency on paid content and on needing PMO to sleep.
My latest streak has left me calmer and more confident and further ahead in my career, but I will suffer sludgy thought, anxiety and lack of charisma as a result of this latest relapse. So onwards!
[What triggered relapse?] A few factors, work stress, alcohol and not following my meditation routine. Of course it feels bad; I have lost the pin sharp focus and dynamic energy that I had before the relapse. It’s very frustrating.
But I am not going to wallow in self pity. I won’t make excuses. I’ve realised that my mistake is to think once I am out of ‘recovery’ I can relax. I won’t make that mistake again.
Also, it is horrible to relapse, but I didn’t binge and I didn’t hurt myself as much as I would in the past. I have also taken big steps forward in my career and confidence during my streak.
So frustrated, down, but definitely not out.
[My relationship with my wife] has massively improved; we are closer, communicate better and we’re are just happier all round
my NoFap journey has taken years and I am almost unrecognisable from when I started. Of course I am not happy to relapse, but I have to reflect and try again
LINK – Relapse at 95 days.