Yesterday was a great day for me, I finally felt that I am healed or partially healed and felt sexually normal for the first time in a long long time. I started masturbating when I was 12 to fantasies and a few years started reading sexual stories, looking at magazines and starting watching porn and masturbating in my early twenties. Unlike many people here, I wouldn’t go on binge watching or edging and would only watch a couple times a week and not for more than 20 minutes each time.
However, I speculate that my brain became accustomed to responding to porn only and when I started having sex I realized that I was experiencing ED and PE – which became only worse over time and I started taking Viagra. I would still get really hard to porn but with a real woman I always needed Viagra and still suffered from PE.
This trend even continued after I got married and watching porn and masturbation was my main sexual pleasure and I would only have sex with my wife to keep the face up. This lead to a tension between us and she finally ended up cheating on me and leaving me. It was then that I decided to address this issue head on and started the hard mode.
I went into a deep and long flat line for 4 months and it has only been a couple weeks that I am starting to see sign of my libido coming back. Yesterday I was able to achieve a full and hard erection only by touching myself no porn no fantasy and this is definitely a new experience for me. I don’t remember experiencing that before.
My morning erections are still not 100% hard but they are back. I still have more recovery to do but I think quitting porn and masturbation was one of the best decisions on my life.
Porn ruined my sex life and my marriage but it’s never too late to quit.
Good luck guys.
LINK – Progress Report after 140 days of NoFap
by hessi81
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