I look at my life with appreciation and excitement


After confronting my PMO addiction that I started to regain a lot of the creativity I had lost when I was engaging with porn five times a day. Growing up, I was a creative kid, and as an adult I have worked as a professional designer for over 15 years. Now, after fighting addiction for over two years, my creativity as an all-time high. I am more productive, more ambitious, and taking on a lot more different kinds of projects.

Has this been anyone else’s experience?

I probably viewed my first pornographic material when I was 12, starting with VHS pornos and Playboy Magazines. As the years passed, and as I started to develop into an adult, my porn addiction became stronger, robbing me of my ability to have loving, caring relationships with people, and messed up the way I viewed the world. It forced me to view women as objects and not people, and encouraged me to go from one sexually physical relationship to the next. Over the past two years during my recovery, I have started to chip away at those old ways of viewing women and things are getting better. My tastes started to change, and the things I focused on shifted, too. After I realized I was addicted, I sent out a lot of emails to women I had hurt in the past, apologizing for my actions. It was a humbling experience, but it had to be done.

Once that porn fog is lifted, you can finally experience life again. This has happened to me as well, and it made me look at the world and my life with so much more appreciation and excitement. When I was engaging in PMO five times a day, nothing excited me, I had next to no motivation to do anything, and life was boring. Now that I have been working through the addiction for the past two years, I am way more productive and motivated. Keep up the hard work, it’s worth it!

For the longest time I couldn’t understand why I could not meet the right girl and why whenever I was in a relationship I wanted to get out of it ASAP. It wasn’t until I realized I was addicted to pornography that I had to acknowledge it wasn’t the girls’ fault, but mine. Once I confronted the person who was responsible for making bad decisions in my life, life started to get a whole lot better.

I remember when I came out to my friends and family about my addiction, it was as if a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders. Although I did worry how the news would be received, I felt that being open about it would encourage other guys I knew to think about their relationship with PMO. Instead of telling people individually, I made a Facebook post about it, and included links to several resources including this subreddit. It was received with a lot of support, and since then, I have always been open about my addiction. I encourage every one of you to be open about your addiction if you feel comfortable doing so, you never know who you may inspire. Keep fighting, friends.

She was shocked at first that I was addicted to pmo and thought it was healthy and normal to do, until I showed her yourbrainonporn.com. She supports my decision 100% and is going to help me through it. I’m so lucky to have her in my life.

I explained to her that I was addicted, but that I was actively seeking help for my addiction. It has been my experience that this journey is a lot easier with someone who supports you and who you can lean on when things get hard. We often have conversations about my progress, and when I’m down and out because my brain is begging for PMO, I know I can talk to her about it. I would encourage anyone to be open with their partner’s about porn addiction. Although there is a chance that they may be confused about it at first, if they love you, they will be a great accountability partner/support network for you.

I did ‘destroy dick every day from age 20 to 35’ and it didn’t turn out too well.

For me, the best approach was end PMO cold turkey. I have had a few small trips along the way, but I have never fallen down. Sure glad I started when I did, because as the months go on, things get a little bit easier. Keep fighting, friends.

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