Things escalated out of my sexual orientation and ladies weren’t arousing me anymore: Took 2 years to heal

Oh well. It’s been a year since i left this site thinking it would be better for my reboot. I still see some old names and a lot of new ones, good that more people are becoming aware of the effects of porn.

Just wanna update how things are going, and maybe motivate someone to quite the porn way of life.

What was my story? Like all of you i feel into the trap at young age, things escalated out of my sexual orientation and ladies wasn’t arousing me anymore. I tried to quit 3 years ago, but took me 2 years to come where in I’m right now, and that is 1 year free of PMO.

After 2 years of trying to quite the frustration was there, looking in the mirror like what’s wrong with me, I’m a fuckin loser, why can’t I control myself; porn surely had a grip on me. I left this site since I thought it was better not visiting sites about porn while trying to forget porn.

What helped me go 1 year pmo free? I restricted my internet use, my goal was to be as social as possible, and after 2 years I had to quit this time. I put my pc away, put porn blockers on my mobile, started going to gym a lot, and joined a sport club, concentrated on school… Just keep myself busy. But it wasn’t easy, eventually I found away to bypass porn blockers, and lots of time through the year I have found myself watching porn for days straight, but I managed not to pmo any of those times, but M to relieve tension, I just kept going through my journey.

Through the entire year I felt very emotional, not crying or anything, but I analyzed my life and people around me, who am I, what am I doing here, who are these people I call friends, all kind of questions. I lost myself, I’m not the same person I was before this year, or I am but still not, I see things differently. I went through months of trying to find my place in the world, and still trying.

Right now for the moment I feel happy. I see the world as it is, I have become genuine, being myself and seeing things as they are. I have come to realise that people are everything in this world, it’s becoming too natural to be social, talking to strangers, just living in the moment. I always put my phone away in public and look around, so many people looking on their smartphones these days that they don’t know where they are going. Please don’t try to live in your smartphone. Recently I deactivated my instagram, facebook and all social media, because felt they were feeding me garbage information. I also had been deleting contacts of people that i feel I don’t need in my life anymore. I’m just living true to my feelings and it feels good and makes me happy.

About my cravings, after struggles through the entire time, now I’m where porn thoughts don’t give me blackout and I’m in control, I’m also fantasizing about girls again, and my escalation thoughts are gone. I can get hard by using my brain only and it feels good.

I can see a bright future for me, I hope anyone reading leave this lifestyle behind and get a new healthy one. Live in the moment, don’t waste time on Porn.

LINK – Different view of life

BY – Master1