At the beginning of February, I started NoFap up again after a short relapse. I have not even thought of porn since the day I stopped for multiple reasons:
A few days after I started again, I began setting a schedule for myself, and overall improving myself as a person. I began going to bed at 9:30-10 instead of 11:30-12. I began to get up at around 5 every morning, take a shower, regularly eat breakfast and give myself some time before school. I also started watching what I put into my body instead of just my brain— I cut out fried food, limited sugar, etc. I’ve never felt healthier.
Not even two weeks after these changes did my luck begin to turn around. I met a girl while drumming for my school’s musical, and started a small relationship. Things were looking way up. I was having so much fun drumming, I was with a girl for the first time… and then life reared its ugly head.
My girlfriend broke it off after 3 days yesterday, she just wasn’t ready for a relationship. Schoolwork has started piling up because I was busy with the musical. I watched one of my best friends enter a new and solid relationship today after my very first had just ended yesterday. I feel like shit, I feel lonely, I feel jealous, and I feel like giving up on all of this- girls, school, everything.
And then, just before I made this post I realized something— more has happened to me this past week than has happened my entire teenage life. I actually got somewhere with a girl. I still feel healthy. And the best part is, I still don’t feel like going back to porn. The only thing left to do is move forward and see what happens. I appreciate myself and what I’ve done.
What’s my point? I have a few.
Cutting out porn can’t be the only thing you do to improve yourself.
Once you start feeling better, life will still interfere. Shit will happen. You just have to make sure you stay on top of it, and that you stay strong because at the end of the day, all you have is yourself.
It’s okay to feel sad, angry, depressed, jealous, whatever. It’s natural. There’s no sunshine without rain. But don’t try to extinguish this negative energy with porn. It will only fuel the fire and bring you down.
I hope you are all doing well. Stay strong gentlemen.
EDIT: The response to this post is overwhelming. Every comment on here is bringing me closer to tears. I really appreciate all of your responses and hearing your experiences. You guys are great. Stay committed.