As a 16-year-old who used to masturbate 3-5 times every single day, the thought of hitting 90 days seemed like a far-fetched dream. But here I am, with tears at the edge of my eyes, sitting at my bed, surprised at the fact that the last time I masturbated was at the 1st of September. Now I know what you all are thinking right now: “Dude, we don’t care about this all, what are the benefits!!” Let me tell you. The sad truth is that no, NoFap won’t magically be the fix to all your problems. Girls won’t flock to you just because you don’t jack off. But you know what the biggest and most important benefit is?
The handcuffs have been removed.
1: The social anxiety that has been plaguing me for years. is now gone. (well, not exactly gone, but reduced to a point where I have no problem talking to anyone, even girls). To understand why this is so huge for me, my social anxiety was so bad that when somebody called my name or tried speaking to me, my face turned red and out of my mouth came a stuttery mess of words.
2: The brain fog that has constantly been obstructing my thoughts, is no more. If you can’t seem to get rid of it, try not to spend too much time in front of a screen.
3:I can feel emotion again. Back when I was at the heyday of my masturbation habits, I felt like an emotionless zombie. Now with NoFap I can actually feel emotion more strongly. Happiness feels like a warm hazy feeling inside of my stomach. Sadness feels like a dark cloud forming on the inside of my body. And yes, I’d rather be sad for the rest of my life than be unable to experience emotion.
4: I am beginning to form my personality, my aesthetic, my vibe. Back then I had no clue who the fuck I was and what the fuck I wanted to do in my life. I just existed.
5: My confidence is sky high. I have learned to believe in myself and my abilities.
6: Even though I still struggle with procrastination and being non creative, I now feel guilty whenever I procrastinate on my work.
7: My view of the world and its issues and imperfections has changed. I have realised that I used to spread messages that I didn’t support or believe, and has started distancing from politics.
8: I have started to enjoy the little things in life. Back then, nothing made me happy, whereas now sunsets make me feel blissful and at peace. I have started paying attention to the little things that passed me by.
9: I have learned to respect and love myself. This is also huge for me, because back in the day I used to never love myself and would always drag me down. “I’m a loser.” “I’m a failure” was what used to cross my mind. on a daily basis.
And my favorite and most important benefit of them all:
10: I FEEL LIKE A HUMAN AGAIN. I feel like I belong on planet earth and blend in with the rest of the humans. My addiction to PMO made me feel like everything was going on slow motion, and that the days simply just dragged on. I am now blessed and exited for every day that goes by. (not currently though because of the shitty lockdown)
Phew, that was a huge fucking text and if you are reding this right now, then congratu-fucking-lations. You now know what it feels like to trust the process, and stick to your streak. For the love of god, PLEASE DON’T GIVE UP. It may feel like the only way out of this dark place is PMO and/or suicide, but trust me. Coming from what used to be a depressed loser with no passions, no personality, and no will to live, IT DOES GET BETTER. Thank you everyone for helping me hit my dream goal of 90 days, and I pray that every one of you who is reading this gets to experience what finally beating your addiction feels like.
Off to great things we go.
LINK – 90 FUCKING DAYS
by Removethefingmech [this account has been deleted from NoFap]