After reading all of the success stories and my time without PMO I’ve realized that there are true differences between a life with PMO and a life without PMO. In my longest streak of 59 days, I had no shame or awkward feelings walking in areas with many people, speaking to strangers or having conversations with 4 or 5 people. My relationship with my girlfriend was perfect in every way and I had always this confidence look on me. My focus was just on myself which allowed me to behave like every other normal person without getting nervous all the time. There was no way to make me feel bad for even a second.
I am honest right now (not to show you how great I was, but to show you that the amazing feeling of everybody who hasn’t done PMO for a while is true!)
After relapsing everything just crashed on me. I was not confident at all, my relationship with my girlfriend was not as tight as it was before relapsing, I had no more concentration and I started to struggle to speak to strangers (especially girls). Now I think I just found my biggest motivation which is that a life without PMO was waaaaay better than a life with this bullshit (sorry for my parlance).
Now I am just ready again to fight, to struggle and to get this better life only because I WANT TO.
Hope I could show you my life from two perspectives.