Male, 20 addict since 12 and since 10 on gaming, quit both… started NoFap cus i hated feeling like a slave of my own desires, so that was the main benefit of this journey, just to GAIN this power of STOPPING feeling like that, for me this alone is the only reason i needed to start NoFap
This is my 1st streak, felt like i was unrelapsable since day 1, had no urges, relapsed bout 50 times before knowing of NoFap, had bout 5 wet dreams, deleted my porn collection about 10 times, within each delete there was like from 100gb up to 600gb, had some very extreme and even illegal porn in it, i was on this cycle for a long time of hating myself for relapsing and engaging in these fucked up acts, so i would delete my stuff (even accounts of chaturbate or whatever, where i actually exposed myself there sometimes, to other men even though i’m straight,
i was a mess… i guess i’ve crossed every line i could with kinks or whatever, was becoming gay,sadistic and maso) welp the cycle is finally over and i’m not even afraid of returning to the old self cus that’s not just going to happen since i really like how i’m turning out, constantly getting better and improving on how i deal with life, my sexuality is ”normal” again and most of the kinks are also gone with it a lot of time wastage and self loathe.
i got CTS due to all the no life gaming i did, i’m off of it now and don’t look back there’s too much cons on it, i played in no life mode since i was 10 and i no longer have interest in playing again… but that’s my decision doesn’t need to be yours but don’t come thinking gaming does less harm than porn because in some ways it really doesn’t.
i just kept trying and i got a job out of nowhere and am talking to girls now and getting stuff done… you can’t give up just know no matter how fucked it is right now it can get better it is possible….110 days ago i was trying my best to not get controlled by this, that’s the main reason of how i did it and how it got rlly clear in my mind i just got tired of being a slave of my desires
this is my 1st nofap streak but i’ve relapsed too much before i’ve found it, i used porn blocker until day 45 cus i didin’t need it anymore… i stopped with drawing (all drawing i ever did was to look at NSFW drawins) , now i leave this
how do you think/feel about porn now
i don’t think its neither good or bad i just don’t like it anymore not my thing, i believe things stay in your life up until a certain time then you must let them go because they’ve fuffiled their purpose…
yes i do feel i’m never watching it again, unless a tragedy like losing both legs happens in my life… that’s the only way i see it with me coming back lol, about wanting to do it nah i don’t i get horny but it’s just 100% clear in my mind that porn can never satisfy me as it never did and it was one of the motives i quit because i just got tired of it i squeezed everything it had to offer so it’s an activity that i know with 100% clarity that it doesn’t give me any resolve… instead i get horny and i try to find a woman or i just suck it up and try achieving my goals believing that women naturally will come…
i’m that kind of guy who hates chasing anybody so i’m not getting laid at all because i hope with my fuffilment with my self will make women think i’m actractive and make it super easy for me… when chasing i feel like it’s a waste of time specially if it fails but even if it’s successful i feel like it’s fake ? that i manipulated them somehow… so yeah i get horny and i usually just embrace it fk it…, about using again hmm no i never think bout using it again as i said this activity is totally pointless to me now as i feel i’ve experienced everything it had to offer… now the funny thing about reaching 110 days is that from day 1 i had this mindset that’s why i didin’t struggle at all with urges, this my 1st NoFap Streak but i’ve relapsed bout 50 times before i knew nofap was a thing
i’m confident i can talk to girls and i’m just capable of handling life, shit comes i get the feeling i’ll sort it out somehow… hmm i wake up whenever i want now and i do way less mindless activities, my thing is more about long the run instead of short term. my body stills the same i think, i look prettier idk i got a haircut maybe it’s that…
i feel like i don’t need to check this r/ anymore since i’m at 110 with no struggle and have a lot to get done, i’m procastinating by being here at this point, thanks for all the great posts filled with inspiration/advice i’ve saved some rlly nice ones! very great community keep it up and gl, cya at the 400+ 2018
LINK – Bye r/NoFap
UPDATE
Just got a job recently on a very nice company and it was our get together of the sector we work at… i was there being sociable, ppl actually liked me i had no problem fitting in even though i’m the new guy, i had a blast there, my female co-workers treat me so well and i even won the bingo hehe (idk maybe it’s Nofap’s luck boost + new guy luck + my own luck? lolz)…
the point is, my life changed dramatically from never going out neither moving up in any area of life just wasting away gaming/jerking off 24/7, everyday of the week was like a sunday to me, to now being pretty good socially, confident now earning my own mony,quit gaming entirely, reading books just finished one btw, looking way prettier, can deal with situations , have options with girls now, some i’d just need to hit up for some sex (but i don’t care bout that my deal is finding one i want to share my life with) also my parents are all proud of me, while on this journey they couldn’t notice a difference up until recently, that made me mad but i kept going regardless and now they see through it, just waiting for my college application results that come out in the 19th.
Idk Nofap is real to me, i can notice this huge difference just from 121 days (and i still procastinate like a mofo) i’m nowhere near where i want to be, gotta soak the tv shows/drinking/eating/ try to read everyday and meditate plus some other habits i want…
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