Age 20 – Porn killed my manliness. (why you should quit as soon as possible)

Yeah, I watch too much porn… but my dick works perfectly.

When I discovered Nofap (5 years ago), I kinda knew there was something wrong with my porn and masturbation habit.

Apathy, lack of confidence, anxiety, inability to attract girls, unmotivated and tired all the fucking time. I was happy to have discovered possible cause of some of my problems. At the same time, I knew part of me was skeptical.

Happiness didn’t last long. I tried quitting countless times. God knows how many relapses I’ve experienced. And I never thought it would’ve taken me 5 years of my life and one episode of Erectile Disfunction (PIED) to finally wake up and have the terrible proof: porn slowly and silently killed my manliness.

I’m almost 21 now and still a virgin. I could’ve lost my V card tonight. I did not. And even though part of it was because the girl didn’t feel ready for sex (which was probably a test), I would feel even more humiliated right now if she was ready.

If she gave me the green light, I wouldn’t have gotten an erection. This is the first time I experience the disfunction. She definitely noticed.

One year ago, I did Nofap for 39 days and would get powerful and very long lasting erections just by kissing a girl.

If I think that all this could’ve been avoided by taking addiction as a top priority since day 1, I almost feel like punching myself in the fucking face.

Don’t get to this point guys. If you are using porn compulsively or masturbating compulsively, stop. You are killing yourself. You are killing the best version of you. And most importantly, you are killing your chances to have sex in real life.

I’ve been going to the gym for years, I have been following a clean diet, I’ve been trying to improve my style. (haircut, hygiene, clothing) Friends compliment me all the time, yet I’m still a timid, unconfident apathetic guy who struggles to socialize and attract girls. I don’t feel like a strong young man.

Do not wait for something like PIED to happen. I always gave my porn habit the benefit of doubt. ‘Maybe it’s not porn. Maybe I’m just naturally unconfident, unattractive, low energy’. Porn kills you inside and it does this silently, without you noticing.

Don’t ever think you can handle porn in your life without it gaining more and more control of you overtime. Quit and never look back.

Take this seriously. And fuck discouragement if something like this happens to you. Find the smallest spark of strenght within you and grow from there.

I am impatient to show the world the real me. I am hungry for success. I am ready to do whatever to quit this shit.