I was just an average guy with a normal lifestyle, until one day, one of my friends introduced me to the world of porn. The difference between him and me. He realised early and stop. I just went on and on. It was a wild moments at start, and then after that, it became unlivable. The life totally tarnished.
I, who had tons of friends and was popular, my friends started avoiding me. I didn’t know why?. I started avoiding people. Why? Didn’t know. Just some unusual fear i never felt before. I never knew what planted this fear.
I still used porn, but I didn’t knew it was the reason; I was earning bad grades, having anxiety and living life with no friends. Porn was the reason my high school time got destroyed. I remember, my sister’s friends used to come at my house to hang out. My parents didn’t know any of my friends and asked me one time to invite them. When i said nothing, my parents knew the meaning of my silence
But finally at May 11, 2017, I realised that porn is bad, and decided to burn this vehicle of disgust and shame forever. It is the hard journey, with urges and flashbacks of those plummeting videos now and then, but i kept myself reminding that, this thing makes its user a victim, a lowlife.
It was only 3 months nofap, when one of my classmates in college said to me that i would have been popular in school. I was shocked to hear those words.
I felt such a confidence and energy in me. I made more friends than ever. I was making everybody laugh. Girls come to me and saying me hi and hugging me. Guys invited me to play pool with them. It was amazing
Now I am 1 year sober from porn. I like to say that, NOFAP the best thing i did. I hate myself for indulging in porn and living a shameful life, full of loneliness and anxiety. There are sometimes, when i feel urges.
But still, life’s better than ever before.