Frankly, I never thought I’d see this day. 90 days no PMO. 90 days since my last relapse. It’s been months since I took the decision to stop fapping my life away. A decision that, and I’m not even exaggerating, changed my life. For the better. I’m 20 kilos(44lbs) lighter than I was. My wardrobe has never been so cool. My hair, oh god, I used to hate it and keep it short. I love it now. I stopped eating like a monster and eat more like a human.
I discovered the joy of exercise. And rediscovered my love of reading.
I can’t not mention friends. I’ve made new ones and grown more appreciative of my old ones. Truly, connection is the opposite of addiction.I found God too. Or rather, re-found him. I’m a regular at Sunday mass now. He helped me get through the most difficult times.
As for the reason I started NoFap, I wanted a girlfriend, but I wasn’t boyfriend material. Am I now? Maybe. I’m definitely closer than I ever was. I’m more of a man now than I ever was. However, getting a girlfriend is no longer my primary concern. I’ve found my path again, found the goals that I had abandoned when I got too deep into PMO. I must achieve them before anything else.
That’s enough of my successes. Do I have any advice? Well… Yes, I suppose. Remember your why. Remember why you’re doing it. Burn it in your head. It can be any reason. You want a girlfriend, you wanna turn your life around, you’re tired of the double life, anything. But it must be strong. Your why must be stronger than PMO. If it’s not, you’ll never succeed.
Have I rebooted then? I don’t know. I still have urges. They aren’t as strong as before, but they exist, lurking at the back of my head, wanting to break out. I don’t know if they’ll ever go away. Constant vigilance is a must. You slip up once, you give your enemy the advantage.
About 90 days. Don’t get cocky. If you think you need to tough it out for just 90 days, guess what. You’re WRONG. You need to be tough your whole life. Life isn’t easy. But you don’t have a choice. You gotta live it. You’re gonna die one day. You don’t get a choice in that either. What you do get to choose is if you’ll live good and fulfilled life or a shitty one. That’s up to you. You want the former, you gotta work for it. But guess what, a tough life is the only one worth living. Easy is boring. Ask anyone who plays video games.
What next? Well, I’m gonna live my life I guess. Good luck to you in living yours.