A little backstory, I’m a 21 year old college [guy] and ive been addicted to pmo probably since I was around the age of 9 or 10. As a millennial I’ve had access to the internet obviously at a very young age. Naturally I just started to pmo as most boys/teenagers do thinking it was normal. Well growing up I wasn’t to social awkward. I had many friends and I was what you could the class clown in school. I would always volunteer to read or answer questions and Most of my teachers enjoyed me being in their class. I also knew and was friend’s with almost everyone around my age group.
Fast forward to high school and that’s where I started taking pmo VERY seriously. I had days where I pmo 6+ times a day. My personality changed. I became more reserved, quiet and I developed social anxiety that still bothers me now from time to time. I became distant from friends and only really talked to them through PS3/PS4 party chat or games. I did have a girlfriend in high school and this is what drove me to seek out NoFap. My ex girlfriend was on my phone one day and I accidentally left a tab of a p website on my internet browser. We both laughed it off but the embarrassment I felt when she saw it killed me on the inside, so I decided to quit pmo and eventually found nofap. (We ended uo breaking up lmao). I had streaks here and there but couldn’t really commit to it long term.
Now my college years. My freshman year I subconsciously did nofap only because I had a roommate and I really didn’t have any privacy what so ever. I could say that that year was my best I had thus far. I also lost my virginity the summer after my freshman year and found my most recent ex girlfriend who I fell in love with very deeply (completely different girl than who I lost my virginity to).
We dated for two years and had a strong connection. I even told her about my addiction to pmo, although she didn’t really understand it. I’m not blaming her, but she did make me feel like pmo was okay/normal. That’s where everything went downhill. I pmo when she went to work or class. I even would have to pmo after sex because I couldn’t finish with her (trust me that’s not a good feeling for you or your partner).
I showed her less and less attention and even would be rude towards her. I also developed major anger issues which I’ve never had before. Pmo led me to do some questionable decisions and we ended up breaking up. 2 year relationship down the drain. I was heartbroken and I honestly had never felt that type of pain in my entire life. That pain reintroduced me to nofap and self improvement.
Now for my benefits:
- I’m able to wake up every morning at 5:00am feeling fully rested.
- I’m able workout 5 days a week at 5:30am mainly lifting weights. (
- I’ve noticed a much deeper connection with friends and roommates and am able to hold meaningful conversations with them.
- Better eye contact with people.
- More confidence
- Increased female attraction in person and on tinder (could be a coincidence).
- I’ve noticed I’ve naturally spent more time outdoors which is weird because I’m from a large city and I’m a gamer.
- A cleaner diet (Ive lost almost 20 pounds in a few months!)
- A fuller beard.
And I just approached a girl today at the gym and gave her my number so I’m feeling extra pumped today!
Edit: I was on NoFap on each encounter with my ex girlfriends/partners.