As I’m typing this I’m on day 15. My record was over 150 days before, I’d have thought it would not affect my self-esteem, but falling back to the addiction caused me to feel much more insecure, weaker eye-contact, unwilling to go to battle, easily giving up.
When you go on long streaks, you become more of a legend, that’s how I viewed myself, I felt no man could conquer me, and I had the capacity to take over the world by my presence.
I have a theory that confidence in general, the profound one, comes from going against your impulses, when we don’t let our self-indulge in short-term pleasure, you are not heading for greatness.
by Troels. L