Some days ago i met a guy who became impotent after too much fapping and was miserable ……….so…it horrified me…..also i would never wanted that something like that shoould happen to me ..so here i am
…have been doing nofap since march 2017 but my times been tougher ,,and anxiety and depression grabbed me by….. so……………….i just did 42 days in 2017 then 52 days in 2018 and 30 days in 2019 this year i pulled one 78 days streak ( i edged and peeked but stopped myself) and one 60 days streak……….
and recently i met flatline. the worse one could have as it was a real exam..i felt so short so shrinked and so impotent and so low of energy and my mood was alaways low…as they say our brain becomes sad due to low dopamine dosage and all my productivity evaporated and would just watch youtube and movies and shit ………………….
.so this year i had relapsed apporx 18/19 times that means i had average gap of 20 days between every fap and here i am with my pied cured . my secret …tryin and tryin again as …self doubt quickly overtook every time i would relapase but i chose to believe myself but every time i would fails i would try again ……..
in this time no superpower cam apart from less depression and yeah…maybe superpower came but what was my favorite is i developed a more humane view towards women and ..even after i came out of toxic friendship?relationship i didn’t fapped out of loneliness as i began to respect bodies and myself and also i developed a more optimistic view towards possibilities and life . ……
so after 600 days i relapsed but ,..didn’t watched porn….my mind again wanted to relapse …i relapsed again but didn’t watched porn……..but i just stopped after two fap on two days …….and guess what all the effect didn’t just went away like u would expect after relapse…some of it stayed and i chose to control myself in my weak state (for some of us ..relapsing means u are free to fap as much as u want before u start again ) …………………………………………………………………….
and i find every morning i am waking up with a morning wood and my balls dont look shriveled raisin but i feel a gutsy man who is so bad ass and not timid and not a soy boy ,..
also i am not ashamed of erections but i feel amazed that just controlling yourself of fapping can give your masculinity back…what more you want??
so believe me its about how you behave after failing do you give up or hold to faith in yourself . always remember you can always learn from your failure and if your streak is going fine and long just introduce some real hobbies so you wont get triggered by internet .
some other changes ….voice more masculine , hair almost stopped falling , more active throughout more confidence more self esteem , lesser anxiey attack , less depressing feeling about future romance , lol i on and off having thoughts about doing it in real rather than opening google for it. alhough you should not fantasise much .
[to someone seeking flatline advice]
I will just say enjoy flatline…by doing engaging activities like whatever u love …apart from mindless browsing……
Even if its eating or sports or maybe ..go out I’m weekends…flatline is more of ..dopamine shortage so replace it with healthy dopamine …..so just enjoy life that is what ur brain asking u too…but healthy activities only or all that streak will be nothing… So ……yeah ….go out and see the ..world around you every days.. Be wanderlust…Perhaps …get up early and roam full city ..
If u can’t go out due to pandemic then. …bring comics or books and read them while in flatline
LINK – pied cured …..never even reached 90 days..porn is the real enemy
By Pati_ryu
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