YBOP Comment: Many rebooters who start watching porn extremely young tend to need longer to recover. It is not unusual to experience a long flatline, and for it to take a while for nocturnal erections/morning wood to return. We encourage everyone to get checked out by a doctor to rule out physiological causes, but have hope that you’re not alone and may simply need more time away from artificial sexual stimulation.
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1000 Day Update:
It has been about a thousand days without porn. In that time I had masturbated intermittently, despite very weak erections. For the first half of this journey I fantasized a lot as well. I got morning wood about 9 months in to this process.
The past few months I have had a girlfriend. It feels nice to have someone who cares about me. I used viagra a few times and I was able to penetrate and have sex. Now, for the past few months I generally am able to get an erection strong enough to penetrate. However, I have never had what I consider a full erection and it goes away without constant stimulation.
The past several months since I started having sex I decided that I would give it a period of time where I would essentially make all my sexual experience through my partner — not with fantasy or masturbation and certainly not with porn. I have been O’ing most times. In this process I feel my erection strength may have improved nominally, but it is nowhere near where I was just a few years ago before this all happened. Also, I have very infrequent morning wood these days and this morning wood tends to be quite weak after a few months of having sex.
Reading past threads and the opinions of others it seems that I may want to simply avoid O’ing.
It has been a long 1000 days, some improvements (it didn’t seem like I would ever have a response strong enough to have sex for the first two years), but the improvements are slow and I am not where I want to be yet. I am still hopeful for the day when I have a full erection and that erection does not require constant stimulation.
Quick Summary:
I watched tons of porn from ages 10-14; I stopped and perhaps experienced flatlines for quite a while that eventually went away and I felt back to normal maybe around age 16 or 17. Then, at age 17.5 I started watching porn again out of curiosity…and immediately felt overwhelming compulsions to watch it frequently and masturbate and generally edge. By age 21 I started to experience some general idea that I wasn’t quite right. My erections seemed a tiny bit softer and I was surprised that an attractive girl’s smile didn’t immediately give me an erection. Then, at the end of that year into age 22 I started to notice dramatic difficulty maintaining an erection, then achieving an erection, smaller ejaculatory force and loads, and only porn could give me erections.
I met with three urologists who claimed I was healthy and that porn was perfectly healthy and that I was just stressing myself out and needed to have sex with a real girl. Then, I continued to masturbate to porn more compulsively than ever hoping I truly was just anxious, but getting more stressed out than ever because my erections basically went away even with porn usage. I masturbated dozens, if not hundreds of times practically limp and finally a few months into being 23 I decided that regradless of the opinions of the urologists I have to stop.
I always wanted to know there were others out there who knew porn was unhealthy, but I didn’t find YBOP until a while into this “reboot” time even.
I began to have some morning wood around 9months into my reboot. However, whenever I would masturbate or now since starting to have sex it would be weak and infrequent. I wasn’t able to have sex for about two years and I still do not get full erections and require constant stimulation to maintain the erection. Hopefully I still will improve and recover more because this is not where I want to be yet.
I appreciate the help of everyone on here. Those who have posted their own stories and those who have reached out.
Good luck to everyone,
Relentless
LINK – 26 years old; 740 days of abstinence
By – Relentless Observer
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