I am nearly 28 and I am from Poland. Beautiful country by the way. Sorry for mistakes in my writing, which could occur in my present post. And probably in the followings I am here because I want to change my life. I have been visiting this forum for a long time. With some breaks of course. Some breaks because of porn. Now i am free from screen fucking since New Year, okay – almost New Year.
It was hard, but it was necessary to become a good man. 44 day free from masturbation and orgasm. For me no masturbation=no orgasm cause I am still a virgin. I am very sad about it, because it means that I am very lonely during my adult life.
Today is 44 day. I want to tell you that porn is bad, very bad, but for me masturbation is also very bad. Even if i have not been watching porn for almost 4 months, during my masturbation i had a lot of fantasies. As you probably now, dirty fantasies. My imagination is well developed, so it was not for me a problem to think about porn.
Now I feel different. I am much calmer, I make better choices, I can look into people eyes, I can argue with my boss at work, tell what I really want to tell. Still awkward, but less than before. The biggest disadvantage is that I am sad. Terrible sad. I know that it is because of my loneliness, which is the result of watching porn I am terrible sorry for it and I hope, that in the nearest future I will be able to feel love again. To feel feelings again. I want to be with not sexy, but rather cute girl, with whom I will get three or four children. This is my dream, or rather my aim.
To become a better man I work out, read books, take cold showers, improve my English, spend time near the nature, eat health, drink lot of water.
In addition, what I really need right now is to meet some girl where I will fall in love. Unfortunately it could not come before I accept myself, my new being.
I will be writing here, as much as I need. I think it could be a good custom for me and for people here. Thank you very much. And – like in the Eurovision Contest – greetings from Poland