Age 36 – My overall outlook in life has never been better. I feel like I am finally beginning to really awake from a really bad dream


I learned about No Fap roughly five years ago. I think two years earlier I started to realize that I might have a problem with PMO. I tried to moderate my behaviour, but I soon realized that it was not possible in the long run. I gave up my internet connection at home. I gave up my Smartphone.

I quickly realized that going without masturbation for a long time was actually quite hard for me. But what really surprised was that even though I had cut myself off from the internet, I still would occasionally find ways to watch some porn. That was when I realized that I am really addicted to porn.

Not having an internet connection really helped to severly reduce my use of porn over the last couple of years. But after some time I realized that I still had not even managed to go 90 days without porn even though I did not even have a private access to the internet. I thought at least that way it should be easy to let go of porn. Well, it wasn’t.

Even without having easy access to online porn this wasn’t easy for me. It’s probably the first time in 15 years that I have gone 90 days straight without porn. But I did it, and I am glad.

I am at 39 days at No Fap, and my overall outlook in life has never been better. Never been better in over twenty years. I feel like I am finally beginning to really awake from a really bad dream. I have experienced the typical improvements:

  • My mind became much more clear.
  • My memory got better.
  • My thinking is sharper.
  • Speaking in an eloquent manner became effortless.
  • I became much more emotional.
  • Much more compassionate.
  • People react much more positive to me in general.
  • I had several occasions, where women reacted in a strangely positive way to me.
  • But definitely the best improvement is that I am much more calm and at peace now.

And I am definitely certain that this is the right way to go. Well, I still have a long journey ahead of me. I am working and fighting towards my 90 days of No Fap, and I am aiming for liberating myself from PMO totally for the rest of my life.

Thanks to all of you who are seriously and honestly keep working and fighting to liberate yourself from PMO! And my deepest gratitude to all the pioneers of No Fap and Pornfree! Those guys in the early days who fought their way through reboots, despite all the doubts and all the ridicule, paving the way for everybody who followed!

I had a lot of doubt myself in the beginning. But I kept at it. And now, after five years, my efforts are finally beginning to blossom.

My best wishes to all of you!

I’m 36 years old.

LINK – 90 days pornfree

by Kokanada