After my birthday I decided I wanted to finally tackle my porn addiction. My birthday is in October which of course runs into November which is sort of a month for men and the whole ‘no nut November’ thing. I tried doing the NoFap stuff some in my early 20s but I found it to be unrealistic and a hindrance more than anything to defeating an addiction to porn. I know lots of people look at this stuff different ways but I just wanted to share my experience so far. As for my addiction, I don’t know if I am/was as bad as some folks. I have never had ED or ‘porn induced ED’ but I think if I kept at it, I would have eventually hit that point so I really had to take responsibility over this.
Over the past 3 months I haven’t been absolutely perfect. I have unintentionally come across porn either on Reddit or other websites because it’s so easily accessible. I never actually realized how easy it is to come by until I started making myself not look at it every day. When I stopped looking at porn every day, I can’t believe how much better I feel in every possible sense. I feel completely reborn. My anxiety has faded, my short- and long-term memory has skyrocketed, my overall mood has improved 10-fold. My productivity at work and in general has also gone through the roof to the point that I’ve gone to work and am ahead of deadlines by a solid week.
I just feel like I have my life back again and I didn’t realize how bad it was until I really put in an effort to not look at porn daily. My motivation for everything in life has fully returned. Basically, my brain is functioning properly again.
Another thing that is amazing to me now is I get completely blown away when I see a girl now. I can’t remember the last time I couldn’t get over the beauty of a girl but it’s all back now. My jaw drops and I smile and get really happy. I didn’t think I would ever experience this feeling again because when I was looking at porn, I was just flooding my brain with that experience over and over again to the point I became completely desensitized to this experience. Its finally returned and it only took 3 months (actually a little less).
When I see these results after such a short time, it is a huge motivation to me. I have learned to hate porn and the damage and control it had over me for so many years. I finally am starting to retain my life and I will continue to fight hard to not get controlled by it again. I’m not going to make a huge discussion on it but I also started getting more into religious stuff the past month and it’s been really helpful as well.
Last but not least the amount of free time I have gained from not binging on porn is amazing. I have gotten so much more done in the past 3 months and I have become inspired to do more things now.
2020 is off to a strong start for me. Thanks for reading.
LINK – How I feel after 3 months