I realized that I AM SOMEONE. That feeling is priceless

Here were the benefits of 120 days noPMO for me

  • Feeling socially secure
  • Feeling like the alpha in a group (most people want to talk to you)
  • Being productive (you have more time and you will overcome boredness)
  • Higher selfesteem
  • Feeling of “aura” –> Like your spirit is way bigger and people around you can feel it
  • Extremely calm in social situation, no sign of self doubts
  • My mind was totally clear. This was one of the best feelings ever. Never experienced this before in my whole life
  • Life was colorful: I remember once seeing a butterfly and I was so astonished by its beauty
  • Inner peace
  • Self respect and selfworth leads other people to respect you and treat you better (it even worked within my family)
  • Feeling important and worthy –> for the first time in my life, I realized that I AM SOMEONE. That feeling is priceless
  • Higher motivation
  • Less worries and doubts
  • More risky

This list could go on and on. I don’t know what noPMO makes for you, but for me it is clear: I become the best version of myself.

Here are the major thoughts I had before I relapsed

  • “Oh, come on. You need this right now. You will feel better afterwards. You are stressed and this will end your stress.”
    • Ended my 120 days streak
  • “Look, here in this book it is recommended to give yourself a lovely masturbation. So, masturbation cannot be that bad, am I right?”
    • Ended my 70 days streak
  • “Yeah, I know you’re bored. You’re sick and laying in bed right now, so, it doesn’t really matter if you break the rules. Come on, just a peak. Maybe a good porn video. What could happen?”
    • Ended my 50 days streak

And this is how I felt after PMOing for some time

  • Feeling social insecure and anxious when there is no obvious reason
  • Feeling of lower worth towards other people
  • Having self doubts
  • Subconsiously going into the victim-mindset, always, when talking to somebody
  • Having massive brain fog (I could not follow important thoughts in my head)
  • Having some kind of depression, wanted to stay in bed for longer in the mornings
  • The urge to isolate myself from others (because of feelings of unworthiness)
  • Inner criticism got way out of hand (feelings of shame almost always within me)
  • Could not control my thoughts, reacted to almost anything that somebody said (even when I desperately didn’t want to)
  • Being/feeling unproductive very often, resulting in feeling sad
  • No inner peace

Things that led to PMO

  • Using social media (esp. Instagram)
    • Seeing so much (half-)naked people makes you horny
    • Seeing so much “successfull and happy” people makes you sad
    • Social media gives you dopamin, and soon you want more (porn)
  • Feeling bored
  • Feeling sad
  • Feeling unloved
  • Feeling not welcomed / not a part of a group
  • Feeling rejected

I don’t say that NoPMO is a master weapon, but it leads you to deal with every feeling you have. Simply because you cannot run away from it. So, you learn to deal with your issues instead of numbing your pain with PMO. You mature as a man.

Link – Remembering the first time I reached 120 days noPMO

By EliasGreen