Little back ground: for 7 years I was a heavy porn addict. The first year is all it took to put me in a deep severe PIED…. I had no clue what was going on.
It was early 2012 when I discovered my issue… it was terrible. I had no idea that something like this could even happen to a man. But I kept getting hard with porn and kept pmo.
Anyhow last April I decided I was done… I had enough…… so I found this forum and it motivated me. I now knew it was a porn issue… so 500 days later. I have never had a urge to view porn again.
I spent all my time focusing on work and the gym and getting into shape. Eating healthier, hanging out with friends.
I have yet to be intimidate with a female but the time is approaching for a test run. I have morning wood very often but I still lose it when I get up. But idk how many time I have woke up super hard and just lay there and it just stays hard as can be…
I stay off social media that’s a huge help and I just browse my favorite YouTube channels and listen to countless videos that help motivate me to be a better person.
I do not get random erections yet but I really in my opinion don’t feel like I have a sex drive at the moment. I have kind of accepted my fate and just am focusing on healing right now. I think once I put myself out there and start getting intimate my brain will respond to the new rush of being intimate and that’s what we want.
Guys please just focus on you…. what you want. Cut this terrible habit. Make it a life long goal to flush it down the drain. If you have any question please ask.
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I really just tell myself that pmo is just bad. Like drugs are bad…. but I really just work out and focus on life. I have not once thought about pmo. I am done…. I want the real thing not a made-up crap.
I have questioned the reboot many times.. but why give in? I think self discipline is a great key to life. I can comfortably say I don’t plan on viewing porn ever again or masturbating. I am pretty content with the results right now… I was a severe case and I am now seeing 100% hardcore erections in the morning and with some touch I can get an erection as well. I am seeing major improvements. I still have yet to have sex, I haven’t tried. Just been riding this reboot out. But I know when the time comes I will be be ready for whatever happens and wont let it get to me.
Best part is my energy. I thought it was a myth… but I have a lot more strength and mindset is strong. I am more controlling of my emotions and I stay very content and happy. Especially when I wake up in the morning and have a huge erection that use to never be there. The reboot is real… it just takes.. time… and discipline.
I am around 560days hardmode. I did have sex for the first time this past Sunday in almost two years. I was about 80% hard and needed stimulation to get hard. I was able to last a few minutes. I was not overly pleased with the results but I will keep on trucking. Any input or questions or motivation please feel free.
Yeah I am done. It’s pretty easy now. Life seems normal and content. Now it’s just me getting back on the horse.
I am hoping to hook up with this girl again. I am attracted to her but I don’t think it will be any more than what it is than just sex. But I am ok with that, I did get some 5ml cialis to help me a little. I talked to my urologist Monday about this issue and he was happy about my achievements and the progress I reported about my reboot. He did pull the don’t believe everything you read. But I pushed the issue about being able to understand the complexity of the issue and how common it is to not ignore.
Update. I did have sex this past weekend, I couldn’t get hard we 4 played for awhile. But her moaning just from 4 play made me have an orgasm when I was soft… like I was so confused. But she stayed the night and we cuddles. Later in the morning I woke up with a morning erection and we had sex. We probably had sex for 5 min. Nothing crazy and she was on top.
Further update : I made it to around 1000 days. I even stopped taking note of the days because I felt like I was moved on from the issue. I had amazing progress. However i logged on to social media and got on dating apps. I noticed that the dating app would cause me to have dopamine rush from all the girls. I noticed it would set me back… so I recommend staying of apps and social media.
I am still going strong. I am still trying to find someone to rewire with. But I have found peace with just giving it time. I would just focus on yourself and stay off social media. Instagram and tinder seem to be the hard hitters for me. So they are a complete no no to me. I noticed on them my morning wood would decrease from to much screen time. So in all I just try to spend less time on my phone. Hence why I haven’t posted in a while.
I am more open amount the issue and have told many people about the effect of PIED. Just stay clear, I can’t say for sure if this will ultimately fix the issue. But I can say that I feel better with porn eliminated from my life. Strive to be a better person and with time I pray everyone has the strength to recover.
LINK – 700 days of hardmode.