I havent felt this confident in my life since years. And by confidence i dont mean confidence around people, but just inside confidence. Its like i trust myself. I started to believe that i know whats best for me. I also have this kind of strength in my head. Where im able to tell myself what to do. Before i used to always do just what felt good for the moment and i used to not focus on improving whatsoever. Now i actually want to see myself be better, i want to work on getting what i want. I feel power while training, and i also feel like i started appreciating myself.
What i want to say, and this is extremely important and you all need to know this is PMO FUCKS WITH YOUR SOUL, no not your head, but YOUR SOUL. The thing is, stuff that fucks with your head, goes away quickly, but once this fucking habbit is in your soul, youre gonna have a lot of trouble getting rid of it. Ive been trying nofap since february and i couldnt get past a streak of 20 days. Now here i am still going strong, still pushing through and not giving a fuck about porn.
What got me here is just not pressuring myself. When you get the urges, dont put yourself down, dont panic, just calm down and think clearly. Fapping doesnt fill in a loop, it creates it. Your brain doesnt know the difference between you jerking off and you having sex. Thats why from too much porn you lose your senses with real women and you cant do shit around them.
I never had the problem of confidence, but the problem was, i didnt know what i want and who i was. Everybody believed i was this kind of super confident, good looking guy, who knows his shit, but all i was, was an arrogant asshole who hated himself inside. Now im actually a person who loves himself and who can push through the struggles that come.
I needed this to happen to me in my life, and so do you guys. Believe me porn isnt gonna give you anything, it doesnt give you money, it doesnt give you friends, it doesnt give you family, it doesnt give you success, it doesnt give you happiness, it doesnt give you attention, it doesnt give you love, it doesnt give you energy, it doesnt give you confidence, all it does is make you feel sorry for yourself and make you live as an outsider.
STOP THIS RIGHT NOW, TAKE FUCKING ACTION, DONT LOOK AT THAT SHIT, DO STUFF TO IMPROVE YOURSELF, AND FUCKING BELIEVE FOR ONCE THAT YOU ARE WORTH IT. YES, YOU, EXACTLY, YOU ARE WORTH ANYTHING THAT YOU WANT, AND IF YOU WANT SOMETHING, YOU WILL GET IT, NO MATTER WHO STANDS IN YOUR WAY, OR WHO TELLS YOU OTHERWISE, YOU MUST KNOW THAT YOU ARE WORTH IT. BE PROUD, BE STRONG, BE A MAN, BE A KING. im out.
So guys here i am at 30 days. Wow that sounds like something i used to think i will never ever be able to say. I cant even believe that ive came this far. And the best part about it, is that i dont plan on stopping. This is something that im so grateful to god for that i found it. I dont even know when to begin. I dont want to lie to you and say the benefits have been huge and ive changed completely. What i can say however is that the benefits are mostly inside of me and not outside. The female attraction, deeper voice etc. isnt here yet and im not rushing it because i know it will come with time. What is here however is the clearness of mind. I learned to respect myself. I learned to love myself for who i am. And ive noticed my old self is coming back.