I’ve made it, officially, on this very day. That wondrous day I’ve been desperately waiting for has come.
All the benefits are there, I’ve been feeling noticeably more confident and humorous, my mind is clear, and my energy just keeps coming. I don’t know if this is due to nofap, but I haven’t gotten past mildly sick, once, in three, four months, despite being around quite a few sickos. In other words, I feel great. Once I was a socially awkward, shy, undriven teenager, and though those things haven’t left completely, the improvement is there.
This isn’t exactly a wholesome success though; on multiple occasions, I’ve broken contracts I made with myself (I did the ‘meeting personal goals’ one), edging occurred, and a bit too much curiosity on the interwebs led to some less, amiable, topics and images. I still made it, through 90 days, completely without the O in the PMO. It’s definitely less reward than it could have been if I had held on to complete abstinence, but I’ve broken the cycle and held on to at least one goal. The one thing that may have saved me is indeed the edging. It lessened that which drives you to the point of no return, but also with major risks, and it continues that temptation cycle. I would not recommend going there, it makes it so much harder to quit entirely, lessens drive, and ruins that reward at the end. Not worth it.
The one thing that huge in keeping me going was ice showers. I go in while the waters hot, quickly soap up with my mind on the next thing, the cold water. If you can force yourself to not think of PMO at all, just enough to get you to the next distraction, you can really go places. The extra drive for cold showers was a nice touch, it gave me a bit of extra drive for the Wim Hof Method, (which is a pretty darn cool thing, involving cold and breathing training resulting in immense health benefits and cold resistance.)
Overall, this ‘journey’ was totally worth it. Now, round two!
…My brothers! I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me. A day may come when the courage of Men fails; when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day. An hour of wolves and shattered shields when the age of men comes crashing down, but it is not this day! This day we fight! By all that you hold dear good on this earth, I bid you stand, MEN OF NOFAP!
LINK –Today’s that day.