Hey guys it’s been a while since I’ve been on here and so I thought I’d share a bit of my story with the hopes of it bringing some value to the community.
I had been addicted to porn for about 12 years, starting at a very young age into my college years. I wasted a lot of my life inhibiting myself and not living up to my potential (especially in my late teens and early 20s). This behavior lead me into having suicidal thoughts and eventually coming up with a plan. Thankfully it never got that far!
At 21 I decided it was time to start fighting off my bad habits one at a time. I started with physical exercise and lost over 30 pounds. Then I finally applied myself in school and actually found that I was more than capable of making A’s. Lastly, I took on my porn addiction, which as we all know is a complete mind game and an extremely tough habit to beat. This was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. At times it made me feel insane, like I was completely out of control, but I embraced the repetitive failure and kept pushing. After months of relapses I finally made it to 30 days shortly after graduating from college but life wasn’t great all of the sudden. I was still paying for slacking off in school, working a crap job that I wasn’t passionate about and didn’t pay very well. But despite this, I took my lessons learned from my mistakes and kept on pushing.
Soon I reconnected with a high school crush of mine and we started officially dating the day I made it to 90 days. She was absolutely relieved to have heard that although I had once struggled with porn, I had overcome it and that it would be a non-issue in our relationship. We did long distance for what felt like an eternity and I worked like hell trying to build my resume to get a decent job to afford to move her out closer to me. My porn cravings came up every now and then but I had so much to live for and work towards, there was no way I was going back to that awful way of living.
Fast forward to present day, my high school crush is now my wife, we got married this past summer. I’ve lost count of my streak; porn is a non-factor in my life. I recently got hired at an amazing company where my income allows us to start doing the things we’ve always wanted to and pay off our loans while we’re at it.
The best part of it all is that my journey has just begun. NoFap is a means to an end. There was a time where I was on this thread multiple times a day, in times where I was craving encouragement. But at this point in my life, what were once paralyzing struggles are simply powerless. I’ve created the life I dreamed of 3 years ago. I’m still working towards being my best self, always growing and finding new ways to improve my health.
If after reading my story you find yourself thinking “I have no idea how to get there, but I know I want to” then great, you’re exactly where I started 3 years ago. Find the courage within yourself to make a change today and worry about tomorrow when you get there, before you know it, you’ll realize there’s a whole lot more to you than you thought.
Thanks for all the support! Use NoFap as a means to an end and fill your life with the things that truly matter to you!
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