Man, I’m crying I never ever thought I would do it… Such a change since my first post here.
I will try to keep it short
What I realized… In the beginning it was hell I had triggers everywhere and urges that felt like someone stabbing me to do something. After speaking with my partner and even though it hurt a lot and scared the shit out of me telling her EVERYTHING it, plus speaking with my amazing parents, and getting accountability partners here made it all possible. I also have a therapist.
Everything turned easier. I didn’t feel like lying was a need. I felt less urges because the idea that everything was a secret disappeared and being my life more transparent it made me see I was breaking free from my addiction and I didn’t feel the need to do anything in secret and lie about it.
I realized that I should do something to get me used to see women without sexualizing them or feeling the need to save pics or masturbate. And it was really hard I had to restart all my accounts in all social media etc.. But of course, some images might pop up. But now I can see a woman with more explicit content and not feel triggered at all in a controlled environment. Is very important to train yourself to see things that are supposed to be triggers without being triggered. I did a lot of introspections when I got triggers. If you see my previous posts you can see how I managed to do it.
My taste got normalised and man…. my partner is the hottest women in my eyes. I realised fetishes is used to have do not turn me on. The idea makes some sick…. I’m not exaggerating. I really do get nauseous
I changed my habits. I started cooking (I used to be shit) and every day I plan and Google million recipes. I get cold showers even if I’m not triggered. It relaxes my mind and body. I do more for her and am more spontaneous (I didn’t know I could be a romantic considering how shitty I always was
My problems with sex= gone! Intimacy =10000% Fetishism= 98% gone PIED=Gone Masturbation without thoughts =recent achievement (feels so natural and relaxing and not shameful)
Is so worth it.
LINK – I’m almost 3 months free without even realizing
by Breakfree2020
;
