I feel like this may be an uncommon issue when it comes to going pornfree, but I’ve recently realised that my fetish has almost disappeared. Now it’s not uncommon that people have porn-induced fetishes, but I feel almost a sense of loss at seeing it go.
It’s a harmless fetish that I’ve had since before discovering porn, so it’s been with me for a long time. It also took a long time to come to terms with it and accept myself. I don’t think it’s really hindered sex or getting it up either. The times that I did have issues with ED, it was because of my overuse of porn, not the fetish. In fact, I always considered it to be a little extra spice to be added on top of my sexuality.
So after about 30 days of pornfree, I relapsed, but I realised that porn of my fetish really wasn’t doing anything for me. Even leading up to the relapse, I wasn’t getting triggered like I used to. Indulging it during sex like I used to on occasion became completely uninteresting to me. This has me thinking that I would have naturally grown out of it, if it weren’t for porn stepping in and sustaining it.
Now sex with my partner is probably better than it’s ever been, but in the back of my head there’s a faint sense that something is missing. I’m guessing that feeling will slowly disappear as my brain rewires itself to a new normal.
Don’t know what the point of this post was. I just wanted to get my thoughts out there.
Has anyone gone through something similar?
LINK – The loss of a fetish