128 days - I feel awesome: I feel like I've awakened from a long foggy.
Two months ago I weighted 103 kilos and I was obese. Now I weight 84 kilos, you heard me. 84 kilos. I am no longer obese and I'm justly mildly overweight.
BUT I FEEL SO GOOD I CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE IT. I have 10 times the energy, I don't even feel like sleeping. I want to do shit, I feel like I've awakened from a long foggy. Last night I've slept 5 hours and now I don't feel tired in the slightest. Tonight I'm going out with friends and I feel so fucking happy about it. I WANT TO SEE PEOPLE INSTEAD OF AVOIDING PEOPLE. I WANT TO TELL PEOPLE ABOUT MY LIFE SINCE NOW MY LIFE IS NO LONGER MADE OF PROCRASTiNATION AND MASTURBATION AND PORN.
I HAVE SUPERPOWERS :
I can do 100 push ups I can climb stairs without being out of breath I can RUN and WALK and I feel light as a feather I AM SO FUCKING HORNY that even A MILDLY OVERWEIGHT PHILIPINO LADY WHO IS 50 YEARS OLD MAKES ME HORNY.
BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY I'M HORNY AS SHIT AND I FEEL SO ALIVE. SO ALIVE. Social interactions are now seamless, I feel WAY LESS social anxiety. I simply don't give a shit anymore, not even one fuck.
I'm sorry I'm using a lot of words like FUCK and SHIT in this post but I feel like they are the only way to truly express how I feel right now. I now have hope in myself and the future. I KNOW I can graduate from college. I KNOW I can go out with friends without having to worry about this and that. FUCK PORN. FUCK FAPPING.
I feel so very awesome right now. I. FEEL. AWESOME. Not everything has been solved. Right now I'm planning three things:
I want to check my hormones levels, to see if everything is right on that from. I want to do a small surgery on my penis to get rid of phimosis and penile papulae perlacee (Google that shit. It's nasty). And I want to visit a psychiatrist to see if I have aspergers or shizoid personality disorder. BUT I DON'T EVEN CARE.
This morning I weighted myself and the scale said 84 kilos to me. I said to the scale "Wat" and she replied "Yep". I went to shower and I COULD SEE MY PENIS. My belly is no longer in the way.
And by the way yes, my penis appears SO MUCH LARGER right now, since there's no fat covering him and making him smaller.
I EAT RICE AND LENTILS AND LEAFY GREENS AND LEAN MEATS AND MY BOWEL MOVEMENTS ARE SO REGULAR AND I HAVE A FUCKTON OF ENERGY. I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING DRINK MY COFFEE AND I RUN TO THE TOILET. HUHEHUEHUEHUEHUEUH
FUCK. I am not even drunk or high on meth or cocaine right now. I AM HIGH ON LIFE.
LINK - I FEEL SO FUCKING GOOD