Age 22 - ED, social anxiety, depression & brain fog
So, after 85 days of not fapping after being a multiple fap per day addict for many years... I can say partaking in nofap has been the best decision I have made in my life. I won't go into detail about specific improvements because I experienced what everyone seems to experience. I'll make a quick list.#1 Improvement: Social anxiety improved DRASTICALLY
--includes confidence, eye contact, comfort interacting, smoothness, etc.
--More energy in general -Clearer, sharper mind, more concentration -More vibrant looking face -Acne is non existant -Depression alleviated -Desire to interact with women -Boners are back!!
I decided to do nofap because of depression, brain fog, social anxiety, low energy, and porn induced ED. I went into it with high expectations, and those expectations were surpassed. I am continuing to make hugely profound progress in all these areas, especially social anxiety.
Today, at the age of 22, was the first time in my life I texted a girl and asked her to hang out with me one on one. Girls have always shown interest in me in the past, but I have always been to socially inept to hang out or go on dates. I just never felt comfortable enough to do it. I thought I never would. Today I hit up this cute girl who has been interested in me and we went hot tubbing. It took me a while but I finally made a move and we made out and I played with her magnificent titties for hours. Although I have had sex with 7 different women in my life (all in college) this was the first time I had actually set up a date and made a move. In the past it had always been at parties or random shit like that. She texted afterwards and obviously had a good time. This NEVER would have happened before nofap. I was just so comfortable and anxiety free.
I also had a huge boner the whole time (awesome)! I had gotten to the point where the last few times I tried to have sex I couldn't even get hard. I needed porn and self stimulation. Tonight I got rock hard from just kissing.
Now for some advice for those of you in the early stages or pondering trying nofap:
-Just try it! It can't hurt you, and you'd be surprised how helpful it can be. I didn't even ponder the possibility my fapping was causing me so many problems. Now I realize it was making my life exponentially more difficult.
-If you're young and reading about this stuff, do it now! My biggest regret is that I was porn addicted throughout my college career. I can't even imagine how much better college life would have been if I had been my true confident and comfortable self throughout. Would have been a much better social life, and would have been rolling in women as opposed to about 2 per year.
-Recovery is NOT linear. This journey has been extremely tumultuous. I felt awesome the first week. The next 2-3 weeks was a terrible flatline. I felt as bad as I had for years. Depressed, lifeless, anxious, irritable, tired, etc. It literally felt exactly like a comedown from cocaine or adderall; certainly all dopamine related. The key is not to get distressed or disillusioned by these flatlines. My last flatline came around day 70 when I thought I was over it. Nope. The good news is that after every flatline I reached a new level of improvement. I came out stronger each time. Just think of he mood swings as a sign that real change is taking place inside your brain.
As for the future, I don't really plan on ever fapping again. I have no desire to, and especially am not interested in porn anymore. In fact I accidentally saw some the other day and it was just disgusting more than anything. I have real human fantasies now. Although I don't see anything wrong with the occasional fap without porn, I just don't have the desire. In fact, I didn't really have the desire the entire 3 months. Relapsing was never an issue for some reason.
Anyway, I want to thank nofap for helping me make such an important and drastic improvement to my lie, and wish all of you luck in your own journeys.
submitted by iisbecomedeath85 days