I nā mahina ʻelua i hala aku nei, ua kaupaona au i 103 kilona a me ka momona. I kēia manawa ke kaupaona nei au i 84 kilos, ua hoʻolohe ʻoe iaʻu. 84 kilo. ʻAʻole wau hou i ka momona a haʻahaʻa haʻahaʻa wau.
Akā maikaʻi wau maikaʻi ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke hilinaʻi. He 10 mau manawa koʻu ikehu, ʻaʻole wau makemake e hiamoe. Makemake wau e hana shit, manaʻo wau ua ala wau mai kahi noe lōʻihi. I ka pō nei ua hiamoe au i 5 mau hola a i kēia manawa ʻaʻole wau luhi iki. I kēia pō e hele wau me nā hoaaloha a hauʻoli wau i ka hauʻoli nui e pili ana. Makemake au e ʻike i ka poʻe i loko o ka pale ʻana i ka poʻe. Makemake wau e haʻi i ka poʻe e pili ana i koʻu ola mai kēia manawa ʻaʻole i hana ʻia kaʻu ola i ka hoʻolaha a me ka hana a me ka hānau.
I MANA NUI
Ua hiki iaʻu ke hana 100 push up hiki iaʻu ke piʻi i luna o nā ala me ka ʻole o ka hanu He hiki iā RUN a me WALK a ke aniani nei au i ka ʻuluʻulu e like me ka hulu A KAHIKI HIKOLA KAI HOA KAI LOAʻI AʻOHE FUA FUA FUA LOAʻO NEI A 50 KAU PONO LOAʻE LOAʻE LOAʻE LOAʻE NOHE LOAʻO MAKAʻI MAKAʻI MAKAʻU KIKEʻI.
AKA ME KA MEA HOPE LOA AKU LOA AKU ME KE KAI A MAKAʻU KE OLA. OLA OLA. Kūleʻa ʻole nā pilina kaiaulu i kēia manawa, ʻike wau WAY LESS ka hopohopo pili kaiaulu. ʻAʻole wau e hāʻawi hou i kahi shit, ʻaʻole hoʻi i hoʻokahi paʻi.
E kala mai iaʻu ke hoʻohana nei wau i nā huaʻōlelo e like me FUCK a me SHIT i kēia pou akā manaʻo wau ʻo lākou wale nō ke ala e hōʻike maoli ai i koʻu manaʻo i kēia manawa. He lana koʻu manaʻo i loko oʻu a me ka wā e hiki mai ana. Maopopo iaʻu hiki iaʻu ke puka kula mai ke koleke. ʻIke wau hiki iaʻu ke hele i waho me nā hoaaloha me ka hopohopo ʻole no kēia a me kēlā. PAIKAU PORN. FUCK FAPPING.
ʻIke loa wau i kēia manawa. I. NANEA. MAIKAʻI LOA. ʻAʻole i hoʻonā ʻia nā mea āpau. I kēia manawa ke hoʻolālā nei wau i ʻekolu mau mea:
Makemake wau e nānā i kaʻu mau pae homone, e ʻike inā kūpono nā mea āpau ma luna mai kēlā. Makemake wau e hana i kahi ʻoki liʻiliʻi ma kaʻu peni e kāpae i ka phimosis a me ka penile papulae perlacee (Google kahi shit. Nasty). A makemake wau e kipa aku i kahi psychiatrist e ʻike inā loaʻa iaʻu nā maʻi asperger a shizoid paha. Akā ʻaʻole wau e mālama.
I kēia kakahiaka ua kaupaona wau iaʻu iho a ua ʻōlelo ka pālākiō i 84 kilo iaʻu. Ua ʻōlelo wau i ka pālākiō "Wat" a pane ʻo ia "Yep". Ua hele au e ʻauʻau a e ʻike paha wau i kaʻu peni. ʻAʻole i kuʻu ʻōpū i ke ala.
A ma ke ala ʻae, ʻike nui ʻia kaʻu peni i kēia manawa, ʻoiai ʻaʻohe momona e uhi iā ia a hoʻoliʻiliʻi iā ia.
HE IKAI MAKAU A ME KA LOA MAKAU ANO MA KE PONO LOA A E PILI ANA AKU NUI IA AKU KUPAU LOAAU ANA MAU KANA WAHAIWAI MAKAU KAHUAKAHI. Hoʻopau wau i ka MORNING DRINK MAʻI KĀF ANDFE MAʻU I TO TOETET. HUHEHUEHUEHUEHUEUH
KOHOA. ʻAʻole wau i inu ʻawa a kiʻekiʻe paha i ka meth a i ka cocaine i kēia manawa. HE KA LOA AKU.
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