10-27 No laila he 24 koʻu mau makahiki, a lilo wau i MO ma kahi o 12 a 13 paha, a iā P ke hiki iaʻu ke kiʻi. Mai ka wā wale nō i hoʻomaka ai ke kulanui 5 mau makahiki i hala aku nei i ka loaʻa pinepine ʻana i ka pūnaewele wikiwiki, a ʻo ia ka manawa aʻu i ʻike ai i nā loli. Ma ka awelika, e ʻōlelo wau I PMO 5 a i ʻole 6 mau manawa i ka pule. ʻAʻole wau he noho kolohe a i ʻole kekahi mea, aloha au i ka hoʻopili ʻana me nā wahine a me ka pilikanaka. Eia nō naʻe, aia kekahi ʻano ʻano ʻē o ka nanging i koʻu wā e moe ana me kahi kaikamahine, me he mea lā e ʻāpono wau i ka masturbating a me ka hopohopo ʻole i kāna mea e manaʻo ai a i ʻole. ʻO ke kumu, kūlike ʻole kaʻu kime kime / ola. I kaʻu mau haʻahaʻa haʻahaʻa, ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke ala aʻe a pōʻino, luʻuluʻu a pelapela hoʻi.
I kaʻu mau kiʻekiʻe, ua like nā mea me he "maʻamau" akā ua hopohopo mau wau a ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke hoʻopaʻa i kahi ipo no kēia kumu. ʻ saylelo wau i ka lakio o ka maikaʻi i nā ʻike moekolohe maikaʻi ʻole he 1: 1. Laki nō wau i ka ʻeha ʻole ʻana e like me nā mea ʻē aʻe ʻē aʻe ma ʻaneʻi, ʻaʻole i loaʻa iaʻu ka hohonu. Akā ua alakaʻi wau i kēlā ʻaoʻao: ke koʻikoʻi a me ka hopohopo mai ke kula med, kahi hopohopo pili kaiāulu hou (e loaʻa ana ka momentum), hui pū ʻia me nā pilina pau ʻole, a laila hui pū me kahi ʻāpiki caffeine a hele i kai ma ka inu inu. Ma hope o ka loaʻa ʻana o kahi pūʻulu o ka weliweli weliweli, a ke noʻonoʻo nei i kaʻu ʻano, ua ʻike wau ua hewa kekahi mea.
Hoʻokahi mea e pili ana i ke kula med ʻo ka nui o nā haumāna i lilo i hypochondriacs, e noʻonoʻo mau nei ke ʻeha nei lākou i kekahi maʻi a lākou e aʻo ai. ʻĀ, ua loaʻa kēia iaʻu. Ua manaʻo wau ua loaʻa wau i ka maʻi lymphatic a i ʻole nā pae testosterone haʻahaʻa. Ua hōʻoia, maʻamau nā mea āpau akā ua hoʻāʻo e lawe i kahi hollistic kokoke iā ia. Ua hele au i GNC a kūʻai aku i mau tona o nā mea hoʻopihapiha, e like me Yohimbe, L-Argenine, aila iʻa, a me ke kūʻai ʻana iā Cialis mai kahi hale kūʻai pūnaewele ma India. Ua minamina wau. A laila, ua heluhelu wau i kekahi mau puke no ke kula e pili ana i ka hoʻomana porn. Ua lohe wau e pili ana, akā ʻaʻole wau i manaʻo ua maikaʻi ʻole wau. Ua hohonu wau i lalo, a ua aʻo e pili ana i ka hopena o ka neurotransmitters i ke ʻano like o ka pili kālā ʻana, a i ʻole nā mea ʻae ʻē aʻe. Ua hele wau i waho o nā koho: manaʻo maʻi mai nā mea hoʻopihapiha, kaumaha, hopohopo, mehameha ... Ua ʻike wau ua loaʻa iaʻu ka hopena ma ka paʻi ma hope o ka lohi o ka ʻike ʻana i ka mea aʻu e hana nei iaʻu iho.
[Manaʻo hou] No laila, aia wau i ka lā 77 no P a ʻo M. He ʻano mākaʻikaʻi wale wau e hoʻomanawanui iaʻu .. akā pono wau i ka ʻōlelo aʻo.
He haumana med wau e hana nei i ka noiʻi ma ʻApelika ... Ma ʻaneʻi wale wau ma kahi o ʻelua mau mahina, ua hoʻomaka wau e hōʻole i ka lā 9 o ʻAukake a i kēia lā ʻo ʻOkakopa 26. ke kūkulu ʻana i ka wā i hoʻomaka mua ai wau i ke koleke ma hope o ke ola moekolohe maikaʻi loa ma HS ... no laila he ʻelima mau makahiki ma hope, ua ʻike wau ʻo ka porn a me ka masturbation a ua ʻike wau ma hope o ka heluhelu ʻana i nā puke lapaʻau i paʻi ʻia. Ma hope o nā makahiki ma hope o ka hopohopo no ka kū ʻole ʻana a ʻaʻole hana maikaʻi ʻana i ka waiho ʻana iaʻu me ka maluhia a me nā koho, heʻuʻuku kaʻu e nalo. Nānā ʻaoʻao ... nalowale e like me 1 lbs a ʻike maoli i ka hoʻonui ʻana i ka hana a me ka likelihood o ke kūkulu ʻana .. hele mai e like me 15% a 33% o ke komo kūleʻa. Hoʻāʻo wau e hoʻopakele i ke alo ma ka ʻōlelo ʻana "ohhh ʻaʻole wau i manaʻo nui loa" inā ʻaʻole wau e noʻonoʻo e pili ana kaʻu dick iā ia (haha, hoʻopaʻi ʻia).
Eia nō naʻe. ʻAʻole porn a i ʻole masturbation: ʻIke maoli i ka holomua kamahaʻo, ʻoiai ma hope o kekahi mau lā. Ua ʻoi aku koʻu hilinaʻi, maʻalahi e kaapuni, aloha, aloha nā wahine iaʻu (hana mau lākou, akā i ka wā o koʻu mau lā pouli ua manaʻo wau e ʻike lākou i ka maluhia a hiki ke ʻōlelo ʻaʻole wau he 100 pakeneka). ʻAʻohe aʻu kuhi hou. Ke noho nei wau i ka pō mai ka porn no koʻu koena o koʻu ola, a ʻaʻohe oʻu makemake e hoʻi i hope. ʻOiai pinepine ʻole ka hoʻonāukiuki ʻana i ka hoʻomaʻamaʻa (e hele ana mai kēlā me kēia pō a i ka turkey anu ma 8/9/11). Ua loaʻa iaʻu he mau moemoeā mākū he 4 a 5 paha mai ka wā aʻu i hoʻomaka ai a ʻike maoli i kahi "hangover" i ka lā aʻe ... kekahi mau manaʻo kaumaha a hewa paha no hoʻokahi lā a ʻelua paha ma hope. Ua hiki i kahi e hiki ai iaʻu ke wānana iā ia, a ʻike e kaumaha ana wau, e ʻae iaʻu e hopohopo iki e pili ana.
Loaʻa iaʻu kahi hoʻohui caffeine maikaʻi ʻole, mahalo i ke kula med. Ua ʻoki nui wau mai ka hele ʻana i ʻApelika, kahi kofe i kēlā me kēia lā a ʻo kahi Coke paha. ʻ saylelo wau ma ka awelika ma kahi o 100mg o ka caffeine i kēlā me kēia lā- MEA ʻoi aku ka emi ma mua o ka awelika o 500-700 + i kēlā me kēia lā. ʻIke wau i ka manaʻo hangover like ma hope o ke kofe ... hauʻoli wau, akā ke huhū nei wau i ka nui. E nānā wau i loko o nā puke o ka caffeine a me ka dopamine akā ʻaʻole ʻo ia ke kiko. ʻO kekahi pilikia: makemake au e inu, a makemake wau e inu nui. Lawe i ka swagger kahiko o nā lā hilinaʻi hou aʻe, a hāʻawi iaʻu i ka hilinaʻi maʻamau e lawe i nā mea i ka pae aʻe ... ʻoiai ʻoiaʻiʻo inā ʻona wau, hoʻi wau i ka square. No laila mai ka hoʻomaka ʻana o kēia regimen: 180 naʻau akamai loa. He kanaka hou wau. ʻO ka hopohopo kaiāulu (ka mea e lele mālie nei iaʻu) ua hala loa. Ua hiamoe wau me ʻelua mau kaikamahine mai koʻu hele ʻana mai, he kaikamahine asia a me kahi kaikamahine Norweigen, ʻelua mau manawa ʻona ma hope o ka pō i waho. Ala aʻe a loaʻa i loko, a māʻona nā kaikamahine ʻelua .... akā ……. manaʻo mau i ka hoʻokahe ʻana i ka naʻau i nā lā ʻelua ma hope (ma luna o ka ʻalekohona hangover) a manaʻo wale wau ʻaʻole wau e ʻike hou i ka ʻoniʻoni. He mea hilahila ia no ka mea makemake nui wau i ke kaikamahine ʻo Norwiegen, a ke ʻike mau nei mākou i kekahi i kekahi. Ke hoʻāʻo nei wau e hoʻolohi no ka mea ʻaʻole wau makemake e hoʻohilahila iaʻu iho, akā laki ʻo ia ʻaʻole ʻo ia ka ʻano hakakā. Ua noho ʻo ia i ka pō (he pia kaʻu ma mua a ua hiamoe iki wau) a mālama wau i kahi hālāwai no ka mea ʻaʻole wau i maopopo inā no wau ia. Ke hana lapuwale nei mākou i kēia kakahiaka a paʻakikī wau e like me ka pōhaku no kekahi manawa akā ʻaʻohe condom .. a laila ma hope (ma hope o ka inu ʻana i ka kofe) loaʻa iā mākou hoʻokahi akā ua ʻike wau e ʻoluʻolu ana a ʻaʻole hoihoi wau.
He aha ka maikaʻi o kaʻuʻaelike? Aia wau i ka lā 77 o ka ʻole o P a M paha, he kaikamahine maikaʻi kaʻu e makemake ai ma ke ʻano he ipo wahine e kali ana iaʻu e lawe iā ia a hoʻomau wau i ka hana ʻole. Makemake wau e lilo i makua a loaʻa ka pilina moekolohe maikaʻi, kahi mea aʻu e hōʻole hōʻole ʻole nei iaʻu iho i kēia mau makahiki i hala iho nei. Kōkua iaʻu! E hoʻihoʻi iaʻu i ke ala kūpono no ka mea manaʻo wau e maikaʻi ana kaʻu hana 
Inā loaʻa kekahi pilikia i nā pilikia dopamine i hoʻopau ʻia e ka caffeine / ka waiʻona a pehea lākou e pili ai i ka hana moekolohe, e haʻi iaʻu. MAHALO!
Ma hope o koʻu kū ʻana i ka PMO (me ka hoʻokaʻawale ʻole i nā Os ʻelua, e ʻike ma lalo), ua hana wau i kahi 180 piha. ʻOi aku wau i kahi keonimana, hilinaʻi, moa, a hauʻoli. ʻO ke kaumaha aʻu e hakakā nei a i waho no nā makahiki he mau wana (ʻoiai he mau koʻi lākou, akā manaʻo wau ʻaʻole koʻikoʻi lākou a kū ʻole lōʻihi). ʻOiai inā ʻaʻole wau e hoʻōla piha i koʻu olakino moekolohe, pono ke ʻano o nā loli (ʻo ka hopena placebo paha kēia, ʻaʻole wau e mālama! He mea maoli iaʻu). Ma ke ʻano holoʻokoʻa, ʻoi aku wau he kanaka ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi ma mua o 79 mau lā i hala aku nei, ke hiki ʻole iaʻu ke kākau i kahi leka uila i kahi polofesa a i ʻole kamaʻilio i kaʻu hoa aloha me ka hopohopo ʻole.
Ua hiamoe wau me ʻelua mau kaikamahine mai ka wā aʻu i hoʻomaka ai i kēia regimen o ka hoʻihoʻi ʻana i koʻu ola moekolohe ma ke ala. ʻO ka manawa mua ma kahi o 5 mau pule i ka reboot; kahi mea inu ʻona i hoʻokahi pō e kū me kuʻu hoaaloha. Me ka hama ʻia ʻana, ua ʻokoʻa loa wau e pili ana i ka moekolohe. Ua nui koʻu makemake, ua ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi, a ua huli hou wau a hopohopo ʻole e pili ana i ka hana, kahi mea nui e hopohopo nui ai. ʻOluʻoli wale wau iaʻu iho. ʻO ka maʻamau, ke hele wau e kau i kahi condom, hele wau i waho a hele i ka palaka akā ʻaʻole kēia kahi pilikia i kēia manawa. ʻIke wau ʻaʻole wau i hoʻōla ʻia e kahi longshot o ka papa, a ua ʻike wau i kahi kahe o ka naʻau i ka lā aʻe a me ka libido pālahalaha. Ua kaumaha wau no kekahi mau lā ma hope, akā ʻano hewa ia no ka haʻalulu moʻomeheu a me ka maʻi maʻi (ke hana nei wau i kahi kau ma ʻApelika). Ua hala koke kēlā, a lilo wau i mea hilinaʻi loa a hauʻoli hoʻi ma hope koke iho.
No ka pule a me ka hapa i hala, ua ʻike wau i kahi kaikamahine hou, a ua pili maoli kāua. Nui ka honi a me ka pelu ʻana, a ua manaʻo wau e hoʻopaʻa paʻa ana wau me ka wahine ʻē no ka manawa mua i nā makahiki; ʻaʻole wale e kuhikuhi ana i ka wahine akā hiki maoli ke "makemake" iā ia a ʻumeʻume ʻia iā ia pū kekahi. ʻAʻole ʻoe makemake i nā hōkū porn ke lilo ʻoe i porn, a ʻo nā kaikamahine maoli āu e makemake ai e kau ʻia ma kahi ala kiʻekiʻe loa, ʻike lākou i ka palekana ʻole, a haʻalele. Eia nō naʻe, ma hope o ka pō i waho (uaʻona wau, ua maikaʻi / buzzed?) Ke hoʻopili nei mākou. Ua kānalua wau e kau i kahi condom no ka mea hopohopo wau e lilo wau ia mea ... akā ua hāʻawi ka wai ʻona iaʻu i ka hilinaʻi a ua moekolohe mākou. Ua hauʻoli au, 2/2 mai ka hoʻomaka ʻana o ke kaʻina hana hou. Akā auē, ʻaʻole hoʻouka hou ʻia. I ka lā aʻe ua ʻike wau i ka noʻonoʻo like ma hope o ka ʻike moekolohe mua i kekahi mau pule ma mua. Ua kaumaha wau no ka mea ʻo kēia me kahi kaikamahine aʻu i makemake nui ai, a makemake wale wau e noho hoʻokahi me koʻu kaumaha. Ua hana wau i kahi kala e hana wau i kahi hana, no laila ua haʻalele ʻo ia i ka wanaʻao (ʻoiai ma nā ʻōlelo maikaʻi). I kekahi mau lā ma hope mai, hele hou mai ʻo ia (ma hope o kaʻu inu ʻana i hoʻokahi pia no laila hiamoe iki wau). Ua hopohopo wau ʻaʻole wau e kiʻi aʻe, no laila ua wahaheʻe wau a ʻōlelo aku ʻaʻohe aʻu condom ʻoiai ʻo wau ma ka liʻiliʻi o ka hapalua mast .. akā ʻaʻole wau i ʻike. ʻAʻole makemake wau e pilikia i ka hana naʻaupō iaʻu iho. I ke kakahiaka aʻe ua noho mākou i kahi moe no nā hola e lapuwale ana, he maikaʻi loa ia. Ua moe mākou ma ke kumu o "ke kihi wale nō, no ka min wale nō" me ka ʻole o ka condom (ʻike wau, palekana ʻole! Akā aia ʻo ia ma BC akā ʻaʻole maikaʻi ia no ka mea pono mākou e lawe malaria prophylaxis ma aneʻi). Eia naʻe, ua ʻoluʻolu wau a paʻakikī hoʻi e like me ka pōhaku, ʻoiai ua maikaʻi ʻo ia i ka makaʻu no kahi PE no laila ua hele koke wau mai laila mai. Ma hope i kēlā lā, ua hele mākou i kona wahi (kahi ona condom) akā ua hoʻohālikelike wau i ka luhi i ka makaʻu ʻole.
Ua kaumaha wau no ka hiki ʻole iaʻu ke ʻike i ka moekolohe maʻamau me kahi kaikamahine aʻu i makemake ai. Makemake wau e hāʻawi mai iaʻu i ka hopohopo, ʻo ia ke kumu e lohi ai wau akā ʻike wau e wikiwiki ana nā mea i nā lā e hiki mai ana ... ʻIke wau i ka hoʻopili piha ʻana i kēia manawa a kaumaha. He mea hilahila ia no ka mea like me 5 a 6 mau lā i hala aku nei ua manaʻo wau e like wau ma luna o ka honua. ʻO kēia mau kiʻekiʻe a me nā haʻahaʻa e hoʻolilo iaʻu i pupule! Lana koʻu manaʻo ʻaʻole wau i hoʻihoʻi iaʻu iho i ka square ma o ka inu ʻona ʻana ... ʻaʻole maopopo iaʻu ka mea e hana hou ai. ʻAʻole wau e hoʻi i PM. Mau loa Akā manaʻo wau ua paʻa wau i kahi rut. E hoʻāʻo wau e hoʻohou hou i kēia i nā manawa hiki iaʻu me ka pūnaewele palena ʻole ma aneʻi, a lana ka manaʻo ma ka manawa aʻe e blog wau e loaʻa i nā lono maikaʻi.
No laila he ʻelima mau lā mai koʻu kūlana hope loa, a manaʻo e nānā maikaʻi loa ana ... ua pau ke kaumaha o ka “hangover” no ka hapa nui. ʻO kēia hopena pule no ka hapa nui he maikaʻi; Ua hele au i kahi hoʻomaha pule me kaʻu ipo wahine hou. ʻO ia nō ka wahine aloha mua loa i hiki ai iaʻu ke mahalo i nā makahiki aʻu i makemake ai. He mea hou a pīhoihoi hoʻi ia.
Eia nō naʻe, i kēia hopena pule ua noho mākou i loko o kahi ulu lāʻau i kēia lumi kahe wai. He lā kupaianaha ka lā hele, ʻauʻau, ka puʻu ʻana, a me nā mea ʻē aʻe, ʻaʻole maopopo iaʻu iaʻu iho, ua hoʻomākaukau wau i kahi ala a me ka ʻehaʻeha a me ka luhi (ʻo ia hoʻi kekahi hapa maoli). Ua manaʻo maikaʻi au i ka ʻoluʻolu akā ua manaʻo wau e pono ke hoʻopakele i ka maka inā i hala nā mea ma hope.
Ma ke kumu ua hoʻi mākou a hoʻopunipuni a manaʻo wau ʻo ia ka pīhoihoi, ka hopohopo, ka hoʻonāukiuki ʻana mai ka humping maloʻo a me ka ʻoiaʻiʻo o koʻu ʻano koʻikoʻi loa i kēia manawa ma hope o 2.5 mau mahina o ka M. A ua noʻonoʻo wau .. i nā manawa ʻē aʻe ua ʻona nani a hiki ke noho i kekahi manawa. Akā yeah, ua hele ka condom lubricated, komo wau i loko, a… I PE. Haha Akā… naʻaupō a huki wale wau i waho a ʻōlelo ʻaʻole maikaʻi wau. Ua huhū wau akā ʻaʻole ʻo ia i ʻike maoli i koʻu manaʻo. Ua hūnā maikaʻi wau iā ia a kuhi wau ua kuhi au ua wela wau āpau a hou ʻia mai ka maikaʻi ʻole. ʻO nā mea āpau, hoʻomāinoino ia akā ʻaʻole ʻo ia i ʻike. Hele au i ka lua, hoʻolei i ka condom a hoʻi i kahi moe .. a 15 mau minuke ma hope .. aia hou mākou. E hoʻāʻo e ʻakaʻaka ʻole iaʻu. Akā ua hana hou ia. Ua hala paha wau i hoʻokahi minute ... akā ua huki hou wau i ka maʻa like e ʻōlelo ana ʻaʻole ʻoluʻolu ka wahine a hūnā i kaʻu PE haha. Hilahila loa! ʻAkaʻaka wau i kēia manawa akā weliweli loa wau .. akā naʻe, manaʻo ʻo ia ʻaʻole maikaʻi wau a ʻaʻole wau i ʻike ʻo wau ʻo 2X i kahi hapalua hola, ka nui o kaila Pie ʻAmelika.
I ke kakahiaka aʻe naʻe, e lapuwale hou ana mākou, a pau i ka ʻauʻau. Ua ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi o kēia manawa ... Ua hele lima wau iā ia a laila moe kolohe (ʻaʻohe condom) no ka mea e like paha me 5 min i ka ʻauʻau ... akā ua nui ka hoihoi. Ka kūleʻa nui. Ma ke ʻano holoʻokoʻa, hāʻawi wau iaʻu iho i C- no nā PE ʻelua akā ʻaʻole wau ʻo F ma hope o kaʻu hana ʻana no ke kakahiaka aʻe. Manaʻo wau e hāʻawi ʻo ia iaʻu i kahi B + ʻoiai ʻaʻole ʻo ia i ʻike e pili ana i ka PE.
Me ka nānā ʻole, ʻaʻole pili ka hopena pule i ka wahine a ua hauʻoli wau e pili pū me ia a ʻo wau pū kekahi me aʻu. ʻIke wau i kahi ʻano crappy i ka lā ma hope o koʻu hoʻi ʻana a makemake wale i kahi manawa wale nō, akā ma hope ua hele i kāna keʻena noho a noho manawa me ia (ʻo kahi hoa noho ma laila no laila ʻaʻohe mea pili loa). Holomua maoli nō a manaʻo wau he manaʻo maikaʻi, akā ke hopohopo nei wau. Ke nānā nei wau i ke kūʻai ʻana i nā condom leʻaleʻa hoʻolōʻihi ʻia akā ʻaʻole au inā maʻalahi lākou e loaʻa ma ʻApelika .. hm. Makemake wau e ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi! Eia nō naʻe, e lawe wau iā PE ma luna o hoʻokahi dick make i kēlā me kēia manawa. E haʻi mai iaʻu inā he ʻōlelo aʻoaʻo kāu a i ʻole inā maʻamau kēia! ʻAno hopohopo wale wau ma laila i kēia manawa ...
He pule hoihoi ia. ʻO ka hapanui mai ka loli o ke ʻano.
E hoʻomaka wau e hoʻomaka mai kahi aʻu i haʻalele ai:
Pros: ʻO ke kaikamahine aloha a me nā moekolohe āpau i hiki iaʻu ke lawelawe. Ka mea aʻu e hoʻohana pono nei i ... ua moe 4 mau manawa ma ka lālani no ka manawa mua i koʻu ola. Woohoo! Hoʻopau i ka hopohopo kaiāulu.
Nā pilikia: Inā he moemoeā pulu, ʻoiai e kaʻana like ana i koʻu wahi moe me kuʻu ipo wahine a me kā mākou aikāne (wahine). Haha, soo hoʻohilahila. Kū aʻe wau i luna a mālama me ka nānā ʻole ʻana .. Ke hopohopo wale nei wau e ʻū ana wau a i ʻole kekahi mea i koʻu hiamoe. Eia kekahi, ʻo ka moeʻuhane e alakaʻi nei i ka WD he… ʻē. ʻIke wau ua blog nā poʻe ʻē aʻe e pili ana i kā lākou mau moemoeā a ʻaʻole nui e waiho ʻia nā waihona i loko o lākou .. akā ma hope o kēia mau moeʻuhane e loaʻa iaʻu kahi "hangover" o ka lethargy a me ke kaumaha no hoʻokahi lā a ʻelua paha ma hope. Hana ʻia kēia ma hope o ka O ... ʻAʻole wau i ʻike i kēia mau manaʻo ma mua i koʻu ola, ma mua o ka hoʻomana porn a i ʻole i ka wā. ʻO kekahi mea aʻu i ʻike ai, ʻo ia me kēia moekolohe a pau ... Ke hoʻomaka nei wau e noʻonoʻo pehea wau ma mua o ka hoʻouka hou ʻana, e like me ka hoʻonui ʻana i ka nui o ka dopamine ma luna o kēia mau orgasms (ʻoiai he mea kupaianaha a kupaianaha kaʻu kaikamahine hou. !). E like me ka hopohopo pili kaiaulu, kaumaha a me nā manaʻo weliweli weliweli e hoʻi hou mai ana iaʻu. Malia paha e maʻalahi mākou i ka wahine ... ʻo 6 Os i nā hola he 24 he rollercoaster no ka CNS. Nui nā awāwa a me nā piko e hoʻouka hou. He mea pono nō naʻe ... hiki i kekahi ke hoʻouna iaʻu i ka loulou i ke kanaka nāna i hana ka pakuhi o kona ʻano? Manaʻo wau e hāʻawi kēlā iaʻu i kahi hilinaʻi e hoʻomau i ka hoʻomau.
No laila he mau makahiki ia mai koʻu kau hope ʻana. ʻO Malaki kēia a ʻo ka pou hope loa i Nowemapa i koʻu noho ʻana i ʻApelika. ʻAʻole naʻe wau i nānā i ka porn a i ʻole masturbated mai ʻAukake - ʻoiai ua ʻike wau i nā mea ponokala kiʻi, a i nā manawa kaʻawale ua "pāʻani" wau me aʻu iho akā ʻaʻole no ka lōʻihi a ʻaʻole wau i kahi orgasm a i ʻole ke nānā nei i nā porn. ʻO ke kumu, ʻo nā kaikamahine aʻu i ʻike ua hoʻouna mai iaʻu i nā kiʻi ʻōlohelohe, a ʻo wai ka mea hiki ke kūʻē? haha Eia nō naʻe, ua hoʻoluliluli wau i ka hana maʻamau i ka porn.
He lōʻihi ka lōʻihi o nā lā 232 a ua kupu mai nā hoʻololi pupule. Inā pili kēia i ka ʻole PM, ʻaʻole maopopo iaʻu. ʻO ka mea mua: i ʻAukake, kaupaona au i 138 paona, paona wau i kēia manawa ma kahi o 165. Mai kuhi hewa wau, maikaʻi loa wau ... E hele ana wau i ka hale hoʻoikaika kino i kēlā me kēia lā mai ka hopena o Kekemapa i koʻu hoʻi mai mai ʻApelika. Maikaʻi koʻu nānā ʻana a ʻaʻole hana hou i ka cardio nui… maikaʻi ʻoi aku ka jacked. ʻO wau pū kekahi pū kao. E ʻōlelo wau ma ka liʻiliʻi i hoʻokahi manawa i ka lā ke huli nui wau. ʻAʻohe oʻu hopohopo pili kaiapili, ka mea i hoʻopilikia iaʻu i ka wā PMOing mau. ʻOi aku wau, ʻoi aku ka hilinaʻi nui i nā nīnauele a ʻoluʻolu hoʻi i ke kū ʻana noʻu iho, a me ka noʻonoʻo liʻiliʻi e pili ana i nā "mea liʻiliʻi". Ua hoʻomoe hou ʻia wau a mai hoʻokuʻu i nā pilikia i kahi manawa iaʻu. Eia nō naʻe, he ipo wahine wau no kekahi manawa (e nānā i nā pou blog ma mua). Loaʻa i kahi moekolohe epic maikaʻi loa. Hele ʻehā manawa i ka lālani i hoʻokahi pō, hiamoe no kekahi mau hola a laila hele i 2 mau manawa hou. ʻOiai he hana kupaianaha kēlā, ua hoʻāʻo wau i kahi yohimbe (kahi mea hoʻonāukiuki i ka moekolohe) a hoʻohana i nā condom (makemake wau e makaʻala maikaʻi no ka mea ʻaʻole wau PM). Eia nō naʻe, ʻoiai i loko o kahi pilina, maikaʻi ka moekolohe a ma ka awelika makemake wau i 10-20 mau minuke, ʻo kekahi manawa ʻoi aku, ʻoi aku ka liʻiliʻi i kekahi manawa. Eia naʻe, ua haki mākou a hoʻi wau i ka US a ke hilinaʻi nei i nā kāhea waiwai pio e pau ai.
He pilikia kēia. Inā ʻaʻole wau inu / ʻona ... maʻalahi wau i ka ejaculation ma mua. Ua hele aku wau me kahi hoaaloha cuz ke hana nei mākou i nā mea he nui akā ʻo nā blowjobs sporadic a me nā wikiwiki ʻaʻole e desensitizing iaʻu. ʻAʻole wau mālama akā, ke hana nei nō wau. ʻLelo wau aia nō wau i 50/50 ma kahi ʻike maikaʻi vs. kahi ʻike maikaʻi ʻole (ma mua o ka hoʻomaha ʻana iā PM, 50/50 wau i ke kiʻi ʻana i kahi kūkulu a i ʻole ʻaʻole, i kēia manawa 50/50 wau i ka ejaculation ma mua a ʻaʻole paha) Ma mua o ka paʻakikī ʻole o ka PE, ma ka liʻiliʻi e hoʻomaka wau i kahi ukana a ʻo kaʻu kumu e haʻi aku ai i ke kaikamahine ua wela loa ʻo ia ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke kāohi iaʻu iho a "ʻaʻole wau e hoʻomaʻamaʻa" ( ka mea ʻoiaʻiʻo) ... ʻAʻole wau mālama.
Eia naʻe ... ma mua o kou kāhea ʻana iaʻu he manslut: ʻo kēia ka mea i hana ʻia i nā hola 48 i hala iho nei. E inu ana wau i kahi kaikamahine / ʻona ʻoluʻolu a me ka ʻuwī ʻana. Ke kiʻi nei i kahi hana foreplay koʻikoʻi no kahi liʻiliʻi ke komo wau i loko ona akā maikaʻi wau no laila huki wau, hoʻomaha, a hoʻokuʻu iā ia iaʻu ma hope o kekahi mau minuke waha. Ma kahi o 30 mau minuke ma hope paʻakikī hou wau a pupuhi hou ʻo ia iaʻu, a ʻumi mau minuke paha wau (ʻaʻole paha, ʻona ʻona). ʻO Soo ... ʻae ʻaʻole hauʻoli loa i ka hiki ʻole iaʻu ke lōʻihi lōʻihi i loko ona, akā nā mea āpau. A laila i ka pō, hele mai kahi kaikamahine ʻokoʻa. ʻO ka manawa mua ua kau mākou a nui ka humping maloʻo, nā pālule, he nui kona mau puʻupaʻa a ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke kāohi iaʻu iho, malia paha ʻo 2am ia a ʻike wau i kahi ʻano mai ka pō i hala akā ʻo ka humping maloʻo hele iaʻu e hoʻokau i kaʻu ukana. I loko o koʻu pālule. ʻAʻole ʻo ia e ʻike a maʻalahi wau a hoʻopau wau iā ia i kēlā manawa akā naʻe…. maoli? I koʻu pālule?!
No laila kaʻu nīnau: ʻae ʻae wau ʻaʻole maikaʻi loa ka porn. Akā maikaʻi ʻole ka masturbation? ʻIke wau e like me ka nui o ka hopena o ka ikaika o ka moekolohe ... malia paha inā wau i hana maʻamau i kekahi manawa (ʻaʻole i ka porn - akā i nā kaikamahine maoli i koʻu manaʻo) ʻaʻole wau e maʻalahi i ka ejaculation mua. Loaʻa wau i nā puka nocturnal e like me hoʻokahi manawa i ka mahina a loaʻa ka manaʻo "hangover" i ka lā aʻe. Manaʻo ??? Mahalo no ke kākoʻo a manaʻo maikaʻi he maikaʻi ma mua o 232 mau lā.
No laila ma kahi o hoʻokahi makahiki a me ʻelua mau mahina mai koʻu ʻike mua ʻana i kēia pūnaewele i ʻAukake 2010 a ua hoʻoholo wau e haʻalele i ka porn a me ka masturbation. Manaʻo wau he palekana ke ʻōlelo ʻana ua hoʻi hou wau.
Ua hoʻomaikaʻi maikaʻi ʻia ke olakino a ua lilo wau i mea noʻonoʻo / kinkier. ʻAneʻane wau i ʻeono mau mahina i ka hohonu o ka pili maʻamau maʻamau loa i loaʻa iaʻu. ʻO kēia ka lua o ka pilina aʻu i pili ai ma hope o ka rebooting (ʻo ka mea mua i hala he 3 a ʻo 4 mau mahina ma mua o ka lele ʻana i waho) akā ma mua o ʻAukake i ka makahiki i hala he mau pilina koʻu i pili i nā kāhea waiwai pio. Manaʻo wau e ʻōlelo nei i kahi mea ma aneʻi: i ka makahiki i hala aku nei ua pili wau i kahi pilina makua olakino no 9 mai nā mahina he 12 i hala iho nei; ʻaʻole naʻe ma mua o kēia (25 mau makahiki koʻu). Eia kekahi, no ka manawa mua i koʻu ola ʻoluʻolu wau i ka moekolohe ʻana ma ka kaikamahine (hoʻohālikelike ʻia i ka pre-reboot, ʻaʻole loa e hiki). Eia nō naʻe, i ka makahiki i hala aku nei, ua hiamoe paha wau me 12+ mau kaikamahine (he kāne maikaʻi wau i ka lol) a ʻaʻohe oʻu pilikia, ʻē aʻe o ka wikiwiki ʻana i kahi kū hoʻokahi pō akā i ka nānā ʻana hiki iaʻu ke mālama. emi, a ʻakaʻaka wale nō e pili ana i kēia manawa.
Eia nō naʻe, ua loaʻa iaʻu nā pilikia olakino noʻonoʻo i kekahi manawa, koʻikoʻi loa. ʻO ka hopohopo (i piʻi me ka weliweli weliweli i ka hopena o ʻAukake 2011, i hala he mau pule ʻelua ma hope o ke kū ʻana) a ua hele ke kaumaha - ua lawe maoli wau iā St. John's Wort e kōkua me ka hopohopo a me ke kaumaha mai Malaki. ʻOiai wau e noʻonoʻo nei he paʻakikī loa nā pilikia psychological e pili pono me PMO, mahalo ʻia lākou ma muli o ka ʻōlelo a PMO i ka hoʻomanawanui ʻana i ka dopamine. Pili ka hapa nui o kēia i ke kula grad, ka haʻalulu moʻomeheu (e noho ana a me ka huakaʻi ʻana i nā ʻāina ʻē), a me ka hopohopo nui e pili ana i kaʻu ʻoihana (ke hele nei wau ma ke ʻano he haumāna i ka hana). ʻO kahi mea nui aʻu i ʻike ai, psychologically, ʻo ia kaʻu mau mea mua i hoʻololi ʻia. Makemake wau e hoʻokū i ka PMO ua hoʻonui i koʻu ʻelemakule a hiki i kahi i lawe ʻia ai wau i kahi e pono ai. Ma mua, ua nānā mau wau i ʻōpio, ua pale ka lauoho maka, nā pimples i kekahi manawa. I kēia manawa ... ʻelemakule loa wau e nānā, lauoho lauoho a me nā lauoho helehelena ke mānoanoa, ʻoi aku ka hilinaʻi i nā kūlana kaiaulu (keu hoʻi me nā mākua, ka mea aʻu e ʻike nei he mau hoa). ʻO ka pilikia, i kēia manawa ua loli kaʻu mau mea nui, nā mea i hoʻohana ʻia e hoʻoikaika iaʻu a wehewehe iaʻu ma ke ʻano he kanaka (e ʻimi ana i ka honua, e kōkua ana i ka poʻe, e ʻike nei i nā moʻomeheu hou a pēlā aku) ke kāohi ʻia. ʻO ia wale nō ka mea e nalowale iaʻu i koʻu ola i kēia manawa. Maopopo iaʻu i loko o kekahi mau mahina e loaʻa wau i nā mea i hoʻonohonoho ʻia akā he rollercoaster maoli nō ia. Emotional, kino, pilikanaka, existentially. Dunno inā pili kēia i kekahi mea akā manaʻo wau e haʻi wau ia.
Ke laina lalo, hiki loa ke hāʻawi iā PMO no ke ola moekolohe olakino. Hiki iā ia ke lawe, a hāʻawi paha, i nā pilikia psychological ʻē aʻe i ka papa, akā ʻo ka hopohopo a me ke kaumaha. Maikaʻi loa ka poʻe āpau!
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