kāʻei kua ʻO wau ʻo PMOing mai koʻu manawa 13, a ua huli au iā 25, no laila, no laila ua pau wau i ka makahiki 12 o koʻu ola i kēlā me kēia lā i kēlā wā e hoʻoneʻe nei iaʻu iho i ka ikaika a me kaʻu kumu.
He aha kaʻu mea e hilinaʻi mau nei ai i nā superstitions, ʻoiai ʻo wau i ke kula kiʻekiʻe ke manaʻo nei au e masturbating i ka lā ma mua e hāʻawi mai iaʻu i ka pōʻino i ka lā aʻe, ʻo ka hapa nui o ka manawa i ʻoiaʻiʻo. Ua manaʻo wau he ala ia na ke Akua e hoʻopaʻi mai iaʻu ma ke ao aʻe inā he masturbated wau i kēlā pō. ʻIke wau e "hoʻolilo" iā ia i ka loaʻa ʻana o kēlā mau loina lanakila a hoʻi a hōʻa ʻia i ke kī pinepine ʻana ma kēlā pō.
Ioba Ua hana wau i kahi hana luʻuluʻu i kahi ʻoihana inikua. Luhi mau a luhi hoʻi mai ka wā i hoʻopau ai wau i kaʻu palapala kuhikuhi Adderall (ua hoʻopau wau i ka manawa like i haʻalele ai wau i nā kūaka). ʻAʻole wau wale nō, akā ʻo kaʻu mau kikoʻī nō ia. Ua makemake wau e komo i ka puka i hoʻokahi makahiki a me ka hapalua i hala i ka hui, akā ua kū wau i koʻu kūlana no kekahi manawa. ʻO ka lā aʻu i kū ai i ka PMOing ka lā aʻu i haʻi ai iaʻu iho pono wau i kahi loli i koʻu ola. ʻEwalu mau mahina i hala aku nei ua haʻalele wau i ka puhipaka loa (ua puhi wau no 5 mau makahiki). Ua haʻi wau iaʻu iho inā hiki iaʻu ke haʻalele i nā cigaka a laila maʻalahi ka maʻalahi hoʻi i ka haʻalele ʻana i ka porn. Kanaka hewa wau. ʻO kaʻu testosterone ma waena o ka hale. Ma nā ʻano ʻē aʻe ua haʻi wau iaʻu iho makemake wau e neʻe i waho o kahi o kaʻu i noho ai (aia wau i ka Midwest). Ua hele au ma waena o kahi mea hoʻolimalima a hoʻonohonoho ʻo ia iaʻu me 3 mau nīnauele kelepona me 3 mau ʻoihana i mahalo nui ʻia. Mai koʻu wā i hala, ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke hana i nā nīnauele kelepona. E ʻae ʻoe iaʻu e haʻi iā ʻoe - ua huli au i nā pākaukau a lūlū i nā mea ʻekolu. Ua hele wau e kipa i kēia mau wahi ʻekolu ma ka pūnaewele a hāʻawi ʻia ʻekolu mau mea iaʻu i nā kūlana a ʻōlelo lākou he kūpono kūpono wau. ʻAʻole wau i hilinaʻi loa i ka wā o nā nīnauele a ikaika loa wau, i kēlā me kēia nīnauele e huli wau i ka papa ʻaina a nīnau iā lākou i nā nīnau e ʻike inā he kūlike maikaʻi ka ʻoihana iaʻu, ʻaʻole wale kahi ala hoʻokahi. E helu pū i kaʻu ʻoihana i kēia manawa - ua puhi i kaʻu mau pule hebedoma i hala i ko lākou manaʻo no ka mea hiki iaʻu ke lilo iā lākou (me ka hoʻokele pūnaewele pili pili) a ua noi mai lākou iaʻu e noho. ʻAʻole ia he pilikino a makemake wau e neʻe i waho ma laila. Aia wau i kaʻu hana hou i kēia manawa a aloha i ka paʻakikī a me ka leʻaleʻa (he anamana wau).
pili ʻAʻohe au i aloha wahine a hiki i koʻu hālāwai ʻana me ke kaikamahine ma ke kolamu i '08. Hoʻomaopopo loa wau ʻaʻole wau i PMO no hoʻokahi pule a pēlā wau hālāwai me kā kaʻu kaikamahine aloha a laila. Aole nalowale wau i kaʻu v-kāleka iā ia. ʻO PMOd pinepine wau i hope koke o koʻu hālāwai ʻana iā ia a ukana a ma hope koke iho. Maliʻa paha ma muli o ka nele ʻole o kaʻu kiʻi ʻana no kekahi mea. Ma hope o ka nalowale ʻana i kaʻu wahine me kekahi kaikamahine ʻē aʻe ma hope mai ua lilo wau i "ʻenehanaist" me nā wahine, a he aha hoʻi e kapa ʻia kekahi e he kāne kolohe. ʻAʻole wau i makemake ia ia, kaumaha wau no ka mea e hāʻule loa wau i ke aloha, akā e haʻalele koke wau i nā pilina. I hoʻokahi pule ma hope o koʻu hoʻokuʻu ʻana iā PMOing (hoʻokahi pule ma mua o koʻu hoʻomaka ʻana i ka noi) ua hālāwai au me ka wahine maikaʻi loa. He lahui liʻiliʻi wau ma kēia ʻāina, a me ka helehelena nani a me ke kino me kona ʻano aloha maikaʻi aʻu i manaʻo ai ua waho ʻo ia i koʻu liona. Akā naʻe ua kūpaʻa kaʻu hilinaʻi a ʻaʻole maikaʻi ʻole kaʻu mau maka. Ua noi au iā ia i waho a ua hui pū mākou mai ia manawa. ʻAʻohe o aʻu mau mea kupaianaha me ia a no kāna hiki ʻole iaʻu ke mihi i ka ʻumikūmālua mau makahiki o wau e hana nei, no ka mea ʻoiaʻiʻo ʻaʻole au e manaʻo e hiki iaʻu ke launa hou aku i kekahi.
ʻO ke ola aʻu i hauʻoli ʻole ai i koʻu ola ma mua. Maikaʻi kaʻu hana hou, ʻo kuʻu ipo wahine ka wahine uʻi a ʻoluʻolu aʻu i ʻike ai. Aloha ʻo ia iaʻu a mahalo nui iaʻu e like me aʻu e hana nei me ia. Ma ke kamaʻilio ʻana i ka mahalo mahalo wau i koʻu mau hoaaloha a ʻoi loa hoʻi i koʻu ʻohana i kēia manawa. Kāhea pinepine wau iā lākou ma mua o ka wā ma mua a aloha au i kēlā me kēia minuke o ke ola. ʻOiai ʻaʻole me kaʻu ipo wahine hauʻoli wau, hoʻi ʻo ia i ka home a neʻe aku i kēlā ʻaoʻao o ka ʻāina no kekahi manawa, akā e hoʻopili kāua. ʻAʻole wau e nānā i nā mea liʻiliʻi. Me kēia mau manawa āpau wau e hoʻolilo ai i ka hapa nui o ia hana me ka kuke ʻana a me ke aʻo ʻana i nā mea hou. ʻAʻole wau i nānā i nā makahiki he ʻumikūmālua ma ke ʻano he "neoneo" e like me kaʻu i ʻōlelo mua ai, akā manaʻo wau e like me ke kiki ʻia ʻana o ke Tiga me kahi pā. ʻO ka pilikia wale nō mai ka wā e hele aku ana wau kiʻekiʻe mau loa ka testosterone a he horny wau i nā manawa āpau. Hiki nō iaʻu ke kaohi. ʻAʻohe oʻu mile nui no PMOing - ua hoʻoholo wau e haʻalele loa.
Makemake au i ka heluhelu ʻana i ka pou o kēlā me kēia, he moʻolelo maikaʻi kekahi a he mea hoʻoikaika kekahi. Inā ua hana ʻoe i kēia mamao - mahalo no ka heluhelu ʻana. Lana koʻu manaʻo iā ʻoukou āpau. ʻO kaʻu wēkē wale nō nā ʻoukou, ʻaʻohe o nā pahu hopu wā pōkole, no ka mea ke loaʻa iā ia e makemake ʻoe e hoʻolei hou. AIM e haʻalele loa ia.
tl; dr: hana hou, kaikamahine hou, ola hou, hauʻoli loa wau.
by KahunaHope
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