Ke moe nei wau ma aneʻi no kekahi manawa a manaʻo wau e kau i kaʻu moʻolelo kūleʻa e paipai i nā poʻe ʻē aʻe a hāʻawi paha i kahi ʻike i ka hana. He SWM wau he 30 mau makahiki i ke olakino ʻē aʻe. Noho maikaʻi wau a hana me ka ʻole o nā pilikia olakino i ʻike ʻia. ʻAʻole i hoʻomāinoino ʻia, ʻaʻohe ʻeha, ʻeha, a pēlā aku. Ua hoʻomaka wau me ka porn i kahi manawa maʻamau i koʻu wā 18 a hele i ke koleke. ʻO ia ka manawa mua aʻu i komo ai i kaʻu kamepiula ponoʻī a me kahi pili pūnaewele wikiwiki. Ma mua o kēlā manawa, ua ʻike wau Kaupuni a me kekahi mau mea kīnā haʻalulu akā ʻaʻole loa he kumu i pilikia e ʻoi loa ana me kahi kaikamahine.
I ka manawa mua ʻaʻole wau i ʻike i kahi pilikia. Akā i mua wikiwiki i kekahi mau makahiki a loaʻa iaʻu kekahi mau hālāwai i ke koleke kahi hiki ʻole iaʻu ke paʻakikī. Ua kākau wau iā ia i nā aʻalolo, ʻaʻole ʻume ʻia i kaʻu mau hoa, luhi, a pēlā aku, a pēlā aku, a pēlā aku. Manaʻo wau he nui ka poʻe o ʻoukou e hiki ke pili. ʻĀ, e ʻoiaʻiʻo me ʻoe, ʻo ka mea like ʻole i mālama mau ʻia iaʻu. E hālāwai wau me kahi wahine a hiki ʻole ke paʻakikī. I nā manawa āpau e hoʻohana nei wau i ka porn i kēlā me kēia lā a hele aku paha e pili ana i ke alapine like pū kekahi. ʻAʻole wau i pili i nā mea ʻelua a ʻaʻohe oʻu manaʻo e hana kekahi porn iā ED.
ʻO ka hope, i ka makahiki 28, ua hele au e ʻike i kahi urologist. Ua hoʻoholo ʻo ia ʻaʻohe mea kino kino iaʻu (ma ka liʻiliʻi ma lalo o ke kāʻei) hāʻawi iaʻu i kahi palapala no Cialis a hoʻouna iaʻu i koʻu ala. Ma kahi o ka manawa like ua ʻike wau iā YBOP a maopopo leʻa nā mea āpau. Ua ʻike wau i ka nui o ka like ma waena o kaʻu moʻolelo ponoʻī a me nā mea a nā kāne ʻē aʻe i kaʻanalike ai hoʻi. He ʻike nui loa ia naʻu.
I kēia manawa, e hāʻawi iā ʻoe i kahi kuanaʻike, ua hoʻokele wau e moekolohe i kaʻu mau 20s akā maikaʻi ʻole ia. Ke kau wau i kahi condom e hele mālie wau. Ua mālama wau i kahi hālāwai kūpono me kahi condom akā manaʻo wau no ka mea ua hala wau i ka hopena pule me kēia pipi a ʻaʻole wau i hele i ka pule ma mua o kona kipa ʻana mai iaʻu. Akā ʻo ka laina lalo ʻaʻole wau e hana e like me kaʻu e pono ai.
No laila, ma kahi o 8 mau pule aku nei i hoʻomaka wau i kahi hou. ʻAʻohe porn. ʻAʻohe masturbation. ʻAʻohe orgasm. Ua kū wau i kekahi mau manawa akā kū wau i kahi manawa a ʻike wau i ka hopena o ka hopena. Ua haʻalele wau iā OKCupid no ka mea hiki ke hoʻomaka iaʻu e hele hewa e like hoʻi me inā wau e ʻike i kekahi mau kiʻi bikini ʻoniʻoni a i ʻole kekahi mea. ʻO kaʻu pahuhopu ka moekolohe me kahi pale condom a hiki i ka orgasm. Ua nānā au i koʻu ikehu ma kahi ʻē. Ua hoʻomaka wau e hana hou, hoʻomaka hou e heluhelu, a hoʻāʻo e haʻalele i ka Pūnaewele (inā ʻaʻole pili i ka hana). ʻO Hell ke nānā nei i ke kīwī (ʻaʻole porn) ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi o ka hoʻohana ma mua o ka heʻe nalu ʻana no ka porn, nā kiʻi bikini, a me nā mea a pau ma ka pūnaewele.
Ua hoʻokō wau i kaʻu pahuhopu! I kēia Pōʻalima i hala iho nei, ua moe wau a hiki i ka hoʻokalakiko. Ua hoʻohana wau i kahi pale pale me ka pilikia ʻole. I ka wā o foreplay ʻaʻole wau i paʻakikī koke akā ma hope iki ua hoʻi mai ia! ʻO ia ʻano sure sure. ʻAʻole he pilikia ke kau ʻana i ka pale pale. Lohi wale wau me ka kaomi ʻole. A me ka ʻoiaʻiʻo, ke hele nei ma hope o ka hana ʻole ʻana no 8 + mau pule i manaʻo weliweli. Ua hauʻoli ʻo ia e like me kāna hopena. 
ʻAʻole loa wau i moeʻuhū pulu a ʻaʻole maopopo iaʻu inā wau e “pāheo”. Ua hele a wane kuʻu libido akā ʻaʻole au i ʻike i kahi kumu maoli iā ia. ʻO ka mea nui loa e hiki iaʻu ke haʻi aku iā ʻoe e haʻalele i ka porn a me nā kiʻi pūnaewele āpau, mai haʻalele, a hoʻomanawanui. ʻAʻole hiki iaʻu ke haʻi iā ʻoe i ka nui o nā hālāwai maikaʻi ʻole i loaʻa iaʻu, ehia mau condom i hōʻino ʻia aʻu i hele ai ma muli o ka hiki ʻole iaʻu ke noho paʻakikī e kau iā lākou. He ʻanuʻu nui kēia naʻu, e like me ka piʻi ʻana i ka mauna ʻo Everest a i ʻole ka haki ʻana i ka mile ʻehā mau minuke a i ʻole kekahi mea. No laila e kau i laila e nā kāne. Hiki iā ʻoe ke hoʻoponopono i kēia. Hilinaʻi iaʻu!
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