I’m 28 and am addicted to porn. Started in my early teens, although 56k modems and living with my parents curbed things. I definitely knew I had an addictive personality though, as I’d often masturbate to digital pictures and magazines 5-6 times a day in my early teens. So I took precautions when I moved out. I’m thankfully intrinsically cheap, so never went to prostitutes/strip clubs. I did go out of my way to never have a computer at home. Just never bought one. Went through college fine, M’d once or twice a day to mental thoughts only. Fine is relative, as I did have bad urges every few months and would pathetically creep on the roommate’s computer when he wasn’t home and go online. But overall exposure to the internet was pretty limited or else monitored, so the addiction didn’t reach it’s full “potential.”
Lè sa a, mwen te ale nan lekòl med, te rankontre premye mennaj mwen nan 22 ak pèdi tifi mwen an l '. Premye ane nan lekòl med te tèlman okipe pa te janm nenpòt ki lè yo twonpe otou ak twòp PMO. Dezyèm ane nan lekòl med ak tout bagay apre sa te anpil mwens tan konsome. Mwen ta fofile nan laboratwa a òdinatè, jwenn yon chanm prive, ki lach èdtan nan yon tan ak mache soti totalman degonfle, fizikman ak mantalman. Mwen ta souvan bezwen ekri rapò oswa pran nòt, se konsa mwen te achte 15 ane fin vye granmoun ultra-oldschool laptap ki te kouri sou yon processeur 33mhz. Trase a te ke li tou senpleman pa t 'kapab konekte sou entènèt la. Anviwon tan sa a, mwen ta jwenn ED yon fwa nan yon lalin ble ak mennaj mwen ye kounye a epi panse ke li te mank de dòmi oswa estrès oswa yon lòt bagay. Men, bagay yo te tipikman OK, mwen ta anjeneral fè sèks 4-5x yon jou.
(bondye, sèlman lè mwen ekri sa a tout parèt tankou yon pwogresyon lineyè oswa menm eksponansyèl nan dejwe mwen.)
Lojman lekòl fini apre 2 zan konsa mwen te oblije deplase nan pwòp plas mwen nan lakou lekòl la. Mwen bezwen yon òdinatè reyèl pou fè travay epi reponn a imèl eksplozif ... Ou ka devine kisa ki te pase. Wayyyy plis PMO, fason pi souvan PIED. mwen te kòmanse vin enterese nan bagay pi difisil ak pi difisil. mwen te choke wè ki jan vire sou mwen te resevwa nan bagay sa yo agresif ak franchman degradan. Mwen te konnen li te move e ke mwen te mete reyèlman gwo twou san fon genyen siyon neral nan sèvo mwen an. Mwen te eseye sispann, yon semèn isit la epi gen, men pa gen anyen soutni. Mwen mete filtè sou tout bagay, men mwen ta toujou jwenn yon fason pou sòti, klike sou modpas bliye oswa friggin fòma òdinatè a. Mwen menm chire kat la san fil nan yon nouvo laptop yon fwa, sèlman yo ka resevwa yon adaptè wifi USB pita. se te MOVE. Mwen seryezman te santi tankou de moun. Youn pathetic ak lòt la plis pathetic.
Paske nan pwoblèm lajan nan fanmi m 'yo, jan m' deplase nan avè m 'XNX ane tounen. Mwen te panse: gwo, sa ap ede. Mwen mete òdinatè a nan salon an. Espere anbarase nan tout bagay geri m 'yo.
Wrong. I just snuck down there at night. PMO’s into the wee early hours, then took caffeine pills to stay awake during the day. PIED with girlfriend gets worse, i get more stressed and insecure and seek out even more PMO. All this time I’m working as a psychiatrist and hear about people struggle with addictions to meth and alcohol everyday, all the while feeling idiotic and weak with my comparatively minor addiction that I still haven’t been able to shake after 10 years.
Pati nan pwogram nan rezidans mwen nan fè m 'travay nan yon pwogram metadòn pou yon mwa. Mwen te kòmanse kèk semèn de sa. Mwen okòmansman pa t 'vle paske mwen te santi tankou li te jis pèmèt dejwe yo nan yon fòm diferan. Mwen toujou souvan santi mwen tankou sa, men nan wè anpil moun 50, 60, 70 ane fin vye granmoun ki te jis kounye a rebati lavi yo apre yo fin gaspiye dè dekad ak eroin, tristès nannan nan ki te ede m 'jwenn plis pase yon papòt espesifik mantal ak dejwe pònografi mwen .
Mwen te eseye kite fimen anvan, men toujou te santi tenté ak fèb pandan tan nan Abstinans. Men, pa ankò. Mwen jis malad konsa nan tout tan gaspiye a jerking koupe anvan yon ekran ti kras lumineux. Mwen malad nan mete akote mennaj mwen nan kabann nan apre yo fin mou. Mwen fatige nan abandone sèvo mwen ak toujou repete kèk sèn sal nan tèt mwen tout kote mwen nan, kèlkeswa moun mwen avèk.
Pòs sa a ta ka mansyone klinik la mwen travay nan, men li la reyèlman YBR ak YBOP ak lekti tout nan posts ou ki te ban m 'motivasyon siplemantè umph la kite fimen ak santi fò fè sa. Mèsi a tout moun ki te janm afiche sou isit la. Mwen reyèlman apresye tan ou ak ouvèti e mwen swete ke mwen ka itil pou pasyan mwen yo menm jan ou tout te avè m '.
LINK - nouvo motivasyon pou rdemare pandan wap travay nan yon klinik metadòn
Jen 18, 2013
after 10 yrs glued to the computer, I kicked the addiction and fixed the PIED!!
Jiyè 06, 2013
hey you guys/girls/men/women,
just wanted write about my success story because it’s largely the result of motivation gleaned from this site. my story is here: http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=10524.0
but in a nutshell, same story as most of you all here, looked at too much porn, started to get into harder and harder stuff, started to affect relationships, etc x 10 yrs. was so fed up with the wasted time and energy and the embarrassment of having ED at 28!
so I quit looking at porn for 2 months, still had problems with PIED, then found this site and realized I had to get serious and quite PMO altogether. I did so for the last 2 months even though i only put up the counter about a month ago.
Didn’t have sex during the last month but my girlfriend (long distance) visited last week and we’ve been having sex about twice to three times a day for the last week without any problems, at 90 to 100% hardness. i feel awesome; like I’m a teenager again. it’s a huge change from what it was, which was either ED, going soft quickly after penetration, or being at like 70% hardness the whole time and having to have sex really rough and frantically to maintain the erection. sex now lasts wayy longer. no tricks or pills or anything, just no PMO. i must sound like a cult member or salesman.
barely had any cravings during the no PMO time. Had lots of cravings during the first 2 months of no porn though. now i have no more cravings. porn is so negatively associated with humiliation and life regression and social awkwardness that i honestly find it unappealing.
flatlined for a good month during the first no PMO month. that was kind of worrisome, but it went away after that time.
I kept myself a little more busy than usual during all this time. scheduled more time with friends, worked out more, ate better, read more. during the first few weeks, i read a lot of stories on this site for motivation and i took notes!
anyways, I’m stoked. for petty man reasons, I’m happy that the wanger works again. secondly, I’m happy to have kicked this addiction. it was taking over my mind. i was seriously thinking and visualizing porn scenes for days after watching them. it was pretty toxic.
this has changed my life. more time in the day, more confidence, more energy, more motivation. who knew jerking off for 20-30min a day could have so many wide-ranging effects?? anyways, ism crazy grateful to this site an to everyone who has posted.
feel free to PM if you have any questions or wanna talk. -minh
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