Brief history (April 13, 2012)
I started becoming sexually active when I was 15. I could get it up whenever for whoever. I had a girlfriend for a long time as a teenager and we were both very happy with our sex lives; to this day the best sex I’ve had. Eventually things ended with us and it was devastating for me. Around this time (maybe a year before) porn tube channels were making their debut.
ຂ້ອຍຕ້ອງການຊີ້ໃຫ້ເຫັນບາງສິ່ງບາງຢ່າງທີ່ ໜ້າ ສົນໃຈ. ຂ້ອຍບໍ່ຄິດວ່າຂ້ອຍເປັນຄົນຕິດຝິນໃນແງ່ທີ່ຂ້ອຍໄດ້ໃຊ້ເວລາຫລາຍຊົ່ວໂມງຕໍ່ມື້ໃນການເບິ່ງຄອມ, ຂ້ອຍບໍ່ເຄີຍເຮັດແນວນັ້ນ. ໃນທີ່ສຸດຂ້ອຍຈະໃຊ້ເວລາ 30 - 45 ນາທີ, ແຕ່ມັນບໍ່ແມ່ນແນວນັ້ນເລື້ອຍໆ. ສິ່ງທີ່ຂ້ອຍຄິດວ່າຂ້າເພດ ສຳ ພັນຂອງຂ້ອຍແມ່ນຂ້ອຍຈະຂື້ນກັບຄອມ. ຂ້ອຍຈະ PMO ປະມານ 5 ຄັ້ງຕໍ່ອາທິດ, ບາງຄັ້ງສອງຄັ້ງຕໍ່ມື້, ສັ່ນຜ່ານວິດີໂອເພື່ອຊອກຫາສິ່ງທີ່ຖືກຕ້ອງ, ປະມານ 30 ນາທີຕໍ່ຄັ້ງ. ສະນັ້ນໃນຂະນະທີ່ບໍ່ຮຸນແຮງຄືກັບບາງຄົນ, ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າຍັງເຊື່ອວ່ານີ້ແມ່ນການປະກອບສ່ວນຕົ້ນຕໍໃນການຂັບລົດເພດຊາຍທີ່ບໍ່ມີເພດ ສຳ ພັນ.
I was 20 years old and in college when I first experienced ED with a girl. I had been drinking all day (it was my birthday) and attributed it to that (which definitely added to it). The next morning tried again and nothing, particularly because I was terrified of what happened the night before. As the story goes, the next four years of my sex life were very mediocre. I could get it up for girls but had to rush to put condoms on, also not really feeling too much whenever I met a new girl or spent the night with her. I continued to PMO 4 – 5 times a week without even thinking twice. I blamed my lack of sex drive on drinking (which doesn’t help, I don’t drink much anymore), on diet, on lack of exercise, on stress. I’ve improved all of these things, and yes I have seen an improvement but not near a full recovery. After finding information about rebooting I decided I’d give it a try, and I’m already seeing some interesting results.
ດັ່ງນັ້ນນີ້ແມ່ນບ່ອນທີ່ການເດີນທາງຂອງຂ້ອຍເລີ່ມຕົ້ນ
ຂ້ອຍຢູ່ໃນວັນທີ 10 ແລະເສັ້ນທາງເພດຂອງຂ້ອຍກໍ່ໄດ້ຂື້ນແລະລົງ. ບໍ່ສາມາດເວົ້າໄດ້ວ່າຂ້ອຍ ກຳ ລັງຢູ່ໃນໄລຍະເວລາສາຍ, ແຕ່ບາງມື້ມັນຮູ້ສຶກແບບນັ້ນ. ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າຮູ້ສຶກແຂງແຮງກວ່າເກົ່າ, ແລະບໍ່ຄຶກຄັກ. ມີຄວາມຮູ້ສຶກເລັກນ້ອຍໃນບາງຄັ້ງ, ແຕ່ວ່າມັນກໍ່ອອກ ກຳ ລັງກາຍ. ໃນຄືນທີ່ຜ່ານມາຂ້ອຍມີຄວາມຝັນທາງເພດຄັ້ງ ທຳ ອິດທີ່ຂ້ອຍເຄີຍມີໃນປີທີ່ຂ້ອຍໄດ້ຫັນໄປເບິ່ງຍິງສາວຢ່າງສົມບູນ. ຂ້ອຍນັ່ງຢູ່ທາງຂ້າງຂອງນາງເບິ່ງ ໜັງ ແລະໄດ້ເມົາມົວກັບຄວາມກະຕືລືລົ້ນແລະພຽງແຕ່ໄປເບິ່ງມັນ, ບາງສິ່ງບາງຢ່າງທີ່ຂ້ອຍບໍ່ຮູ້ສຶກຕັ້ງແຕ່ຂ້ອຍອາຍຸ 20 ປີ. ສິ່ງທີ່ຂ້ອຍ ໝາຍ ຄວາມວ່າ, ຂ້ອຍຕື່ນຂຶ້ນດ້ວຍໄມ້ໃຫຍ່. ໂອ້, ແລະເດັກຍິງຄົນນີ້ແມ່ນ Tina Fey.
ວັນ 27
I feel like things are pretty much back where I left off about a week ago. I’m really on day 33, but I went through a small flatline (a couple days) after my “release” last week, so I’ll just count last week as a period of time to get back up to speed.
Experiencing occasional morning wood, in varying intensities. This last week I had at least one long lasting, hard morning wood, prob around 85%. Also, been getting semis just from walking around, I think it’s mostly triggered by the friction against my underwear/pants, which is a good sign that sensitivity is back. This morning, got real hard, close to 100% from just the thought of something related to sex, like someone talking about getting a blowjob on this site, no visuals. I stood up and it was sticking out hugeee, and stayed that way for about a minute. Light strokes kept it super hard after that. I was out drinking last night… which always makes me hornier in the morning, so that may be an influencing factor.
It’s been gradual but I think my wood is starting to last longer from less and less stimulation. I guess that is the ultimate goal here, to be able to maintain wood with as little stimulation as possible (mental and physical). Where do we draw the line? There’s got to be a point where it’s only natural to need some sort of stimulation. And how do we measure when that amount of stimulation we need is natural? More importantly, when do we know when ED is cured? I think when I was younger I could stay hard for a while, with out much stimulation but I don’t remember how long. I think I’m becoming impatient!
I will probably start updating this less frequently as to keep my mind off the whole thing as much as possible. If anything significant happens, I will post about it, though.
LINK - Recovered from ED, much more confident in general. (August 12, 2012)
ຂ້ອຍເລີ່ມຕົ້ນວາລະສານກັບມາໃນເດືອນເມສາແຕ່ກໍ່ບໍ່ດີກ່ຽວກັບການຮັກສາມັນໄວ້. ຕັ້ງແຕ່ວັນທີ 3 ເດືອນເມສາທີ່ຜ່ານມາຂ້ອຍບໍ່ໄດ້ເບິ່ງຄອມແຕ່ຂ້ອຍໄດ້ສະແດງແລະປິດຫຼັງຈາກທີ່ໄດ້ເລີ່ມຕົ້ນ ໃໝ່ ໜຶ່ງ ເດືອນ. ຫຼັງຈາກສອງສາມເດືອນເຂົ້າໃນການເລີ່ມຕົ້ນ ໃໝ່ ຂ້ອຍສັງເກດເຫັນວ່າລະດັບຄວາມ ໝັ້ນ ໃຈຂອງຂ້ອຍ ກຳ ລັງເພີ່ມຂື້ນແລະຄວາມກັງວົນກໍ່ ໜ້ອຍ ທີ່ສຸດ (ປະຫວັດຍາວນານກັບຄວາມກັງວົນໃຈ).
ເມື່ອບໍ່ດົນມານີ້ຂ້ອຍໄດ້ເຫັນເດັກຍິງຄົນ ໜຶ່ງ ແລະຕາມປົກກະຕິຂ້ອຍຈະກັງວົນກ່ຽວກັບການມີເພດ ສຳ ພັນແລະມີບັນຫາໃນການໃສ່ຖົງຢາງອະນາໄມຫຼືຮີບແລ່ນເຂົ້າໄປເພື່ອຂ້ອຍຈະບໍ່ແພ້ມັນ. ທ້າຍອາທິດທີ່ຜ່ານມາ (ຜົນກະທົບທີ່ເປັນໄປໄດ້?) ນາງໄດ້ໃຫ້ຂ້ອຍເຮັດວຽກສອງຢ່າງເຊິ່ງຂ້ອຍມີຄວາມລະອຽດອ່ອນຫຼາຍ, ທັງ ໝົດ ທີ່ນາງຕ້ອງເຮັດແມ່ນໄປຢູ່ໃກ້ຂ້ອຍແລະມັນຈະຕອບສະ ໜອງ ຕໍ່ການ ສຳ ພັດຂອງນາງ. ດຽວນີ້, ມື້ນີ້ພວກເຮົາມີເພດ ສຳ ພັນເປັນຄັ້ງ ທຳ ອິດແລະຂ້ອຍບໍ່ໄດ້ກັງວົນເລີຍວ່າຂ້ອຍຈະປະຕິບັດແນວໃດ, ຂ້ອຍຮູ້ສຶກ ໝັ້ນ ໃຈຫຼາຍຂຶ້ນແລະຮູ້ວ່າການເລີ່ມຕົ້ນ ໃໝ່ ກຳ ລັງເຮັດວຽກຢູ່. ໃຫ້ແນ່ໃຈວ່າພຽງພໍ, ບໍ່ມີບັນຫາເລື່ອງຖົງຢາງ, ບໍ່ມີຄວາມວິຕົກກັງວົນແລະມີເພດ ສຳ ພັນທີ່ດີ. ນາງຕ້ອງການມັນອີກສອງສາມຊົ່ວໂມງຕໍ່ມາແລະຍັງບໍ່ມີບັນຫາຫຍັງເລີຍ.
I wouldn’t say I’m completely back yet and I’ve read many reports where things still get better after 5 – 7 months go by of rewiring. I look forward to things getting even better, but for now I’m super happy.
ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າຫວັງວ່ານີ້ຈະຊ່ວຍໃຫ້ທ່ານບາງຄົນອອກ, ຢູ່ກັບການເລີ່ມຕົ້ນໃຫມ່.
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