I’m 28 and am addicted to porn. Started in my early teens, although 56k modems and living with my parents curbed things. I definitely knew I had an addictive personality though, as I’d often masturbate to digital pictures and magazines 5-6 times a day in my early teens. So I took precautions when I moved out. I’m thankfully intrinsically cheap, so never went to prostitutes/strip clubs. I did go out of my way to never have a computer at home. Just never bought one. Went through college fine, M’d once or twice a day to mental thoughts only. Fine is relative, as I did have bad urges every few months and would pathetically creep on the roommate’s computer when he wasn’t home and go online. But overall exposure to the internet was pretty limited or else monitored, so the addiction didn’t reach it’s full “potential.”
ຫຼັງຈາກນັ້ນຂ້ອຍກໍ່ໄດ້ເຂົ້າໂຮງຮຽນ med, ໄດ້ພົບກັບແຟນສາວຄົນ ທຳ ອິດຂອງຂ້ອຍທີ່ອາຍຸ 22 ແລະໄດ້ສູນເສຍພົມມະຈາລີກັບຂ້ອຍ. ປີ ທຳ ອິດຂອງໂຮງຮຽນມັດທະຍົມແມ່ນຄ່ອຍມີເວລາຫຼາຍຈົນບໍ່ມີເວລາທີ່ຈະຫລອກລວງກັບ PMO ຫຼາຍເກີນໄປ. ປີທີສອງຂອງໂຮງຮຽນ med ແລະທຸກສິ່ງທຸກຢ່າງຫຼັງຈາກນັ້ນໃຊ້ເວລາຫຼາຍຫນ້ອຍ. ຂ້ອຍຢາກເຂົ້າຫ້ອງທົດລອງຄອມພິວເຕີ້, ມີຫ້ອງສ່ວນຕົວ, ເວລາຫວ່າງຫລາຍຊົ່ວໂມງແລະຍ່າງອອກໄປຫມົດ, ທັງດ້ານຮ່າງກາຍແລະຈິດໃຈ. ຂ້ອຍມັກຈະຕ້ອງຂຽນບົດລາຍງານຫຼືຂຽນບັນທຶກ, ສະນັ້ນຂ້ອຍຊື້ຄອມພິວເຕີ້ໂນດບຸກລຸ້ນທີ່ມີອາຍຸ 15 ປີທີ່ແລ່ນດ້ວຍໂປເຊດເຊີຂະ ໜາດ 33mhz. ການແຕ້ມຮູບກໍ່ຄືວ່າມັນບໍ່ສາມາດເຊື່ອມຕໍ່ກັບອິນເຕີເນັດໄດ້. ໃນຊ່ວງເວລານີ້, ຂ້ອຍຈະໄດ້ຮັບ ED ຄັ້ງ ໜຶ່ງ ໃນວົງເດືອນສີຟ້າກັບແຟນໃນປະຈຸບັນຂອງຂ້ອຍແລະຄິດວ່າມັນແມ່ນການຂາດການນອນຫລັບຫຼືຄວາມກົດດັນຫຼືສິ່ງອື່ນ. ແຕ່ສິ່ງທີ່ປົກກະຕິແລ້ວແມ່ນບໍ່ເປັນຫຍັງ, ຂ້ອຍມັກຈະມີເພດ ສຳ ພັນ 4-5 ຄັ້ງຕໍ່ມື້.
(ພຣະເຈົ້າ, ພຽງແຕ່ໃນເວລາທີ່ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າຂຽນລົງນີ້ມັນທັງ ໝົດ ປະກົດວ່າເປັນໄລຍະສັ້ນໆຫລືແມ້ກະທັ້ງຄວາມຄືບ ໜ້າ ໃນການຕິດແສດຂອງຂ້າພະເຈົ້າ.)
ທີ່ພັກອາໄສໂຮງຮຽນສິ້ນສຸດລົງພາຍຫຼັງ 2 ປີສະນັ້ນຂ້າພະເຈົ້າຕ້ອງໄດ້ຍ້າຍເຂົ້າໄປໃນສະຖານທີ່ຂອງຕົນເອງນອກສະຖານທີ່. ຂ້ອຍຕ້ອງການຄອມພິວເຕີ້ທີ່ແທ້ຈິງເພື່ອເຮັດວຽກແລະຕອບກັບອີເມວທີ່ຖືກລະເບີດ…ເຈົ້າສາມາດເດົາໄດ້ວ່າມີຫຍັງເກີດຂື້ນ. Wayyyy PMO ຫຼາຍ, ວິທີການ PIED ເລື້ອຍໆ. ຂ້ອຍເລີ່ມສົນໃຈເລື່ອງຍາກແລະ ໜັກ ກວ່າເກົ່າ. ຂ້ອຍຮູ້ສຶກຕົກຕະລຶງເມື່ອເຫັນວ່າຂ້ອຍຫັນໄປຫາສິ່ງທີ່ຫຍໍ້ທໍ້ແລະກົງໄປກົງມາ. ຂ້ອຍຮູ້ວ່າມັນບໍ່ດີແລະຂ້ອຍ ກຳ ລັງໃສ່ຮ່ອງຮອຍທາງປະສາດທີ່ເລິກໃນສະ ໝອງ ຂອງຂ້ອຍ. ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າໄດ້ພະຍາຍາມຢຸດ, ໜຶ່ງ ອາທິດຢູ່ທີ່ນີ້ແລະຢູ່ທີ່ນັ້ນ, ແຕ່ບໍ່ມີຫຍັງຍືນຍົງ. ຂ້ອຍໃສ່ຕົວກອງທຸກຢ່າງແຕ່ຂ້ອຍຍັງຊອກຫາທາງອອກ, ກົດທີ່ລືມລະຫັດຜ່ານຫຼື friggin ປະຕິຮູບຄອມພິວເຕີ້. ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າເຖິງແມ່ນວ່າຈະລຸດບັດໄຮ້ສາຍໃນແລັບທັອບຄອມພິວເຕີ້ ໃໝ່ ຄັ້ງດຽວ, ພຽງແຕ່ໄດ້ຮັບເຄື່ອງປັບ wifi usb ຕໍ່ມາ. ມັນແມ່ນ BAD. ຂ້ອຍຮູ້ສຶກຢ່າງຈິງຈັງຄືກັບສອງຄົນ. ຫນຶ່ງໃນຄວາມຮັກແລະຄວາມຮັກອື່ນໆ.
ເນື່ອງຈາກບັນຫາເງິນໃນຄອບຄົວຂອງຂ້ອຍ, ຄົນຂອງຂ້ອຍຍ້າຍກັບຂ້າພະເຈົ້າກັບຄືນໄປບ່ອນ 2 ປີ. ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າຄິດວ່າ: ດີ, ນີ້ຈະຊ່ວຍໄດ້. ຂ້ອຍໃສ່ຄອມພິວເຕີໃນຫ້ອງນັ່ງຫຼິ້ນ. ຄາດຫວັງວ່າຄວາມສັບສົນຂອງທຸກສິ່ງທຸກຢ່າງທີ່ຈະປິ່ນປົວຂ້າພະເຈົ້າ.
Wrong. I just snuck down there at night. PMO’s into the wee early hours, then took caffeine pills to stay awake during the day. PIED with girlfriend gets worse, i get more stressed and insecure and seek out even more PMO. All this time I’m working as a psychiatrist and hear about people struggle with addictions to meth and alcohol everyday, all the while feeling idiotic and weak with my comparatively minor addiction that I still haven’t been able to shake after 10 years.
ສ່ວນ ໜຶ່ງ ຂອງໂປຼແກຼມທີ່ພັກອາໄສທີ່ຂ້ອຍຢູ່ເຮັດໃຫ້ຂ້ອຍເຮັດວຽກໃນໂຄງການ methadone ເປັນເວລາ ໜຶ່ງ ເດືອນ. ຂ້ອຍເລີ່ມຕົ້ນສອງສາມອາທິດກ່ອນ. ໃນເບື້ອງຕົ້ນຂ້ອຍບໍ່ຕ້ອງການເພາະຂ້ອຍຮູ້ສຶກວ່າມັນເປັນພຽງການເຮັດໃຫ້ສິ່ງເສບຕິດຂອງພວກເຂົາມີຮູບແບບແຕກຕ່າງກັນ. ຂ້ອຍຍັງຮູ້ສຶກເຊັ່ນນັ້ນຢູ່ເລື້ອຍໆ, ແຕ່ໃນການເຫັນຜູ້ຊາຍອາຍຸ 50, 60, 70 ປີຫຼາຍຄົນທີ່ຫາກໍ່ສ້າງ ໃໝ່ ໃນຊີວິດຂອງເຂົາເຈົ້າຫລັງຈາກເສຍເວລາຫລາຍທົດສະວັດດ້ວຍການເຮໂຣອິນ, ຄວາມໂສກເສົ້າທີ່ເກີດຂື້ນໃນນັ້ນໄດ້ຊ່ວຍໃຫ້ຂ້ອຍມີຈຸດພິເສດທາງຈິດໃຈສະເພາະກັບສິ່ງເສບຕິດຄອມຂອງຂ້ອຍ .
ຂ້ອຍເຄີຍພະຍາຍາມເຊົາກ່ອນແຕ່ຮູ້ສຶກວ່າຕົນເອງອ່ອນເພຍແລະອ່ອນເພຍໃນຊ່ວງເວລາທີ່ລະເວັ້ນ. ແຕ່ບໍ່ແມ່ນອີກຕໍ່ໄປ. ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າເຈັບພຽງແຕ່ທຸກເວລາທີ່ ກຳ ລັງປັ່ນປ່ວນກ່ອນ ໜ້າ ຈໍເບົາບາງ. ຂ້ອຍບໍ່ສະບາຍທີ່ຈະນອນຢູ່ຂ້າງແຟນຂອງຂ້ອຍຢູ່ໃນຕຽງຫລັງຈາກທີ່ມັນອ່ອນລົງ. ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າເມື່ອຍທີ່ຈະເຊົາສະ ໝອງ ຂອງຂ້າພະເຈົ້າແລະສືບຕໍ່ສະແດງບາງເລື່ອງທີ່ສົກກະປົກໃນຫົວຂອງຂ້າພະເຈົ້າຢູ່ບ່ອນໃດກໍ່ຕາມ, ຢູ່ບ່ອນໃດກໍ່ຕາມ, ຜູ້ໃດກໍ່ຕາມທີ່ຢູ່ກັບ.
ບົດຂຽນນີ້ອາດຈະກ່າວເຖິງຄລີນິກທີ່ຂ້ອຍເຮັດວຽກຢູ່, ແຕ່ວ່າມັນແມ່ນ YBR ແລະ YBOP ແທ້ໆແລະອ່ານທຸກໆຂໍ້ຄວາມຂອງເຈົ້າທີ່ເຮັດໃຫ້ຂ້ອຍມີແຮງຈູງໃຈພິເສດທີ່ຈະເຊົາແລະຮູ້ສຶກແຂງແຮງໃນການເຮັດ. ຂໍຂອບໃຈທຸກໆທ່ານທີ່ເຄີຍລົງໄປນີ້. ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າຮູ້ບຸນຄຸນຢ່າງແທ້ຈິງຕໍ່ເວລາແລະຄວາມເປີດເຜີຍຂອງທ່ານແລະຫວັງວ່າຂ້າພະເຈົ້າສາມາດເປັນປະໂຫຍດຕໍ່ຄົນເຈັບຂອງຂ້າພະເຈົ້າຄືກັນກັບທີ່ທ່ານທຸກຄົນເຄີຍມີຕໍ່ຂ້ອຍ.
LINK - ມີແຮງຈູງໃຈໃຫມ່ທີ່ຈະເລີ່ມຕົ້ນໃຫມ່ໃນຂະນະທີ່ເຮັດວຽກຢູ່ໂຮງຫມໍມະເຮັງ
ມິຖຸນາ 18, 2013
after 10 yrs glued to the computer, I kicked the addiction and fixed the PIED!!
ເດືອນກໍລະກົດ 06, 2013
hey you guys/girls/men/women,
just wanted write about my success story because it’s largely the result of motivation gleaned from this site. my story is here: http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=10524.0
but in a nutshell, same story as most of you all here, looked at too much porn, started to get into harder and harder stuff, started to affect relationships, etc x 10 yrs. was so fed up with the wasted time and energy and the embarrassment of having ED at 28!
so I quit looking at porn for 2 months, still had problems with PIED, then found this site and realized I had to get serious and quite PMO altogether. I did so for the last 2 months even though i only put up the counter about a month ago.
Didn’t have sex during the last month but my girlfriend (long distance) visited last week and we’ve been having sex about twice to three times a day for the last week without any problems, at 90 to 100% hardness. i feel awesome; like I’m a teenager again. it’s a huge change from what it was, which was either ED, going soft quickly after penetration, or being at like 70% hardness the whole time and having to have sex really rough and frantically to maintain the erection. sex now lasts wayy longer. no tricks or pills or anything, just no PMO. i must sound like a cult member or salesman.
barely had any cravings during the no PMO time. Had lots of cravings during the first 2 months of no porn though. now i have no more cravings. porn is so negatively associated with humiliation and life regression and social awkwardness that i honestly find it unappealing.
flatlined for a good month during the first no PMO month. that was kind of worrisome, but it went away after that time.
I kept myself a little more busy than usual during all this time. scheduled more time with friends, worked out more, ate better, read more. during the first few weeks, i read a lot of stories on this site for motivation and i took notes!
anyways, I’m stoked. for petty man reasons, I’m happy that the wanger works again. secondly, I’m happy to have kicked this addiction. it was taking over my mind. i was seriously thinking and visualizing porn scenes for days after watching them. it was pretty toxic.
this has changed my life. more time in the day, more confidence, more energy, more motivation. who knew jerking off for 20-30min a day could have so many wide-ranging effects?? anyways, ism crazy grateful to this site an to everyone who has posted.
feel free to PM if you have any questions or wanna talk. -minh
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